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Old 02-07-2014, 06:23 AM
CloudyDe CloudyDe is offline
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Default Being Someone I'm Not

I have to stop.

I just can't do the whole monogamous relationship thing. Even being with the perfect man, it drains the energy out of me. I don't feel free any more. I feel like I'm some place I don't belong. It feels like an act.

I was born poly and I can't just choose to be monogamous. A monogamous relationship is just numbing to me. It's true that I haven't been depressed in a long time, but I haven't been elated either. I need to explore my passions and learn and love and grow.

So I broke up with "the perfect man" today.

I guess I needed some place to say that it's hard not being like everyone else. I tried. But I just couldn't do it. I need my love to feel free, not bound down by rules and possession.
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Old 02-07-2014, 06:41 AM
JaneQSmythe JaneQSmythe is offline
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love =/= ownership

welcome to the forums!

read. talk. share. discuss.
JaneQ(Me): poly bi female, in an "open-but-not-looking" V-plus with -
MrS: hetero polyflexible male, live-in husband (25+ yrs)
Dude: hetero poly male, live-in boyfriend (7+ yrs) and MrS's BFF
SLeW: platonic hetero girlfriend and BFF
MrClean: hetero mono male, almost lover-friend to me, ex-FWBs to SLeW, friends with MrS
+ "others" = FBs, FWBs, lover-friends, platonic G/BFs, boytoys, etc.

My poly blogs here:
The Journey of JaneQSmythe
The Notebook of JaneQSmythe
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