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Old 03-13-2011, 07:41 PM
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Thanks for mentioning all that about the sheets. That's real attractive.

But seriously, thank you for taking care of me.

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Old 03-14-2011, 05:17 AM
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I'm sorry you are feeling so under the weather RC!

To the guys-great job at being a team!

Love reading about that stuff!!
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Old 03-15-2011, 12:37 PM
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I am nearing the end of a "30 days of gratitude" experiment in which I find something to be genuinely grateful for every day. Today is day 29. This has been an easy exercise. 30 days always goes by faster than you think it will and there's much to be thankful for in my life. It's also been humbling to see it inspire others to do the same. So I'm going to keep going. Everyday. Finding gratitude.

But I'm going to take it a step further. Yesterday I sat down on a nice cushion that RC made in the middle of the living room floor, set a timer for 15 minutes and meditated. This has always been a challenge for me; to sit quietly with myself and stay focused on one thing. My thoughts are sometimes rampant gorillas with sledge hammers intent on taking me to task. But I sat with them. Let them run around and when ever a hammer fell I would return my attention to my breath. I began to concentrate on feeling my body from the inside. Starting with the very top of my head and moving where ever I felt needed attention. As my focus shifted from place to place I could physically feel my cells reacting to my attention. The timer went off and I went about my evening feeling relaxed and calm, not judging the quality of the experience at all.

I will repeat this exercise for the next 30 days and keep a log of it.
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Old 03-15-2011, 11:02 PM
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Old 03-20-2011, 03:20 PM
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Default This is my progress.

And I make it (semi) public because declarations are powerful. I keep a lot of things private for the same reason.

To the end of becoming awesome (read: to become as free a doer as I am a thinker), I have embarked on my current journey. This includes a regimen of physical fitness, gratitude, meditation, meaningful music and self examination. But that is only one facet of the journey. That part makes me strong enough to accomplish the real work. The work of building a family.

Family is the most important thing I can imagine. A collection of souls intent on experiencing this life together. Family remains when all else falls away. Family does not judge, because it can not judge. It sustains itself by its members supporting each other as well as themselves.

For a family to thrive, there must be sacrifice, but sacrifice alone is not enough. Not by a long shot. There must also be joy, mutual growth, trust, companionship, vulnerability, equality, compassion, understanding... the list is immense. But suffice it to say, if any member gives of themselves for too long without ensuring that they are filled back up with all the beauty that family brings, there with be disharmony.

I am committed to making my family thrive and nurturing it's harmony. There is no work I will not gladly dive into to reach that goal. I have accomplished much recently. I have also faltered. Joy and Pain. Love and Fear. I feel it all. And I am grateful for being allowed to share this with my family.

Protect me. Cherish me. Call on me. I have no choice but to love you.
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Old 03-23-2011, 10:08 AM
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Beautiful..
Lovely..
Pure..
honest...
strong..
open..
inspiring..

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Old 03-24-2011, 03:11 PM
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Default Suffering and Death - By Jin Dwyer

Jim was a friend of mine many years ago. He, too, is a force of nature.

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Suffering and death
Suffering and death
Suffering and death

They hand you a nag full of broken glass and they say
"This is your life. Put it back together motherfucker."

Suffering and death
Suffering and death
Suffering and death

Oh No!
Everyone's a robot.
Oh No!
These vegetables have a hidden agenda.
Oh No!
Once you hit that Lucky Strike even once,
You're never the same again.

Suffering and death
Suffering and death
Suffering and death

Lying in the sunlight the blind yellow dog sniffs, twitches, lifts his head.
He knows I'm around here somewhere.
His body, like mine, remembers everything.
His body, like mine, attracts flies.

Suffering and death
Suffering and death
Suffering and death

Oh No!
The first time I tasted a woman's come,
I thought I discovered the source of the Nile.

My tongue realized it had a secret identity,
My bones finally understood that they were in fact connected to each other And my blood started singing "Gloria! G-L-O-R-I-A Gloria!"

And then I started thinking...

Hmm. I wonder what else they lied to me about?

Suffering and death
Suffering and death
Suffering and death

At the bus stop it's Tuesday
And trust me, aint no one around here praying for transcendence.

At the bus stop the needs are more basic, more naked...
A ride
A drink
A couple bucks
A look
A touch
"Don't fucking do that."
"Hey, what time is it?"
"Hey, please... listen to my stories... please... please... listen to my lies."

Suffering and death
Suffering and death
Suffering and death

The little girl next door has drawn a blue chalk giant on the sidewalk.
It's got purple devil horns, it's wearing a green cape, it's holding a wild red guitar that really does look like an axe.
"Who's that?" I ask.
"I'm not sure. Mommy says it looks like Dad, but I don't care what she says. I like him anyway."

Suffering and death
Suffering and death
Suffering and death

That line about everyone's a robot... I was wrong.

Everyone's free to do whatever they choose.

Oh No!
I've never had my nuts caressed by Courtney Love and it looks like now it's not going to happen

And once...

Dick and I were wandering around in New York City and somehow we wound up at the spot where John Lennon was shot and killed.
John
Was
Gone
But the city rolled on

Suffering and death
Suffering and death
Suffering and death

My neighborhood isn't safe.
It's full of cops.
My neighborhood isn't safe.
It's full of culture.
My neighborhood isn't safe.
It's full of poets.
My neighborhood isn't safe.
It's full of neighbors.

It's full of flesh
And blood
And bone
And rubber
And metal
And plastic
And garbage
And gardens
And fences
And alleys
And curses
And perfect nonsense
And pictured windows
And shattered glass
Everywhere
Shattered glass
Everywhere

Go ahead, pick it up, fit it together
Make something whole and perfect from it if you must.

But I say it's better to let it lie there

I say see if you can love it that way

See if you can love what is broken and beyond repair.
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Old 03-26-2011, 03:47 AM
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Love this one. I wish they could hear him say it.
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Old 04-07-2011, 02:02 PM
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When this journey began, I saw it a something new and wild. Living on the fringe. Bravely going where precious few have ever dared. And in a way, I was right. This world we live in has been constructed over the last few centuries as a patriarchal, monogamous, male dominated mess, fraught with possession and fear of losing those possessions. So in that regard, this way of life is as fringy as it gets. But in the grand scheme of things, it's nothing new. It is, in fact, a return to a more natural way. There was a time in human evolution when families were more than a man, a woman, their parents, children and siblings. There was a time when there was no such thing as an individual possession. It was more practical to share everything, so as not to burden one back with more than it could bear. There was a time when your family was your tribe. Your village. Your clan.

Imagine if that were the case today. Oh. Right. You are.
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