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Old 10-25-2014, 01:29 PM
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Smile my Saturday morning

good morning everyone.. I wanted to like give everyone an idea about my day to day life. I also had a conversation with R about anonymity. I found this site yesterday (a close friend I go to school with told me about it, she posts from time to time) back to Saturday morning, I have a soccer tournament today our first game is at 10:30 so I have alittle time.

First R is happy that I have found a forum to like talk about my feelings, she also said that she would not post or even join the site. She thinks if I like use this site like a journal or whatever I will temper myself if I think she is going to read what I wrote.

So alittle about me and us, I am 23 in college. R is married in her late 30' and my lover. M is her husband in his mid 40's he is not dating anyone at the moment. He just ended a 5 month relationship with another man. Both R and M are bi. I however am not, I am a lesbian. They have 2 boys #1 and #2. #1 is 9 and #2 is 7...

So I got up early about 6:00 and did some cleaning. Last night was R and M's date night, so there was an empty bottle of wine on the deck and 2 wine glasses and like 6 beer bottles (must have been one of the neighbors)

The boys were up at like 6:30 (they are going fishing with one of the neighbors and their children. I got them some breakfast, and R came down as they were finishing and running out the door.

I got her a cup of coffee and sat on her lap and thanked her for coming to my game last night (we won and that's why we are playing today and if we keep winning we will play tomorrow) She told me it was M's idea, he is so thoughtful (but lets be honest 22 women running up and down a field, what man would not like that idea) I asked her about dinner and stuff like that. She took me downstairs to my room (their house is (can I say our house?? it feels a little strange) a two story with a finished basement, I have like an apartment with a full bathroom down there. It helps to have 2 locked doors between us with the boys lol) we took a shower together (I showered last night but I am not going to say no to a shower with a pretty woman lol.) She picked out my jersey, shorts, and socks for today. Well 3 different jerseys (I love it when she does that) She also said if we win the first game to text her because she is going to try to come to the second game (the boys have their games today at 1:00 and 3:00 so M is going to take them. That made me smile, she is pretty busy on weekends but she is making time to come watch me play.

Tonight is the subdivision Halloween (don't get me started on how silly I think that is.. really the Saturday before Halloween? Is candy that expensive you cant share it with all the kids) I am dressing up like a witch she and M are not dressing up. It should be fun, and I will get to meet more of their neighbors. That's always hard just because of the questions. They are not like hiding anything from anyone, but they are not wearing signs either so I usually tell people as much of the truth as I can. I'm a college student, living with them helping out with the house and whatever else they need. So far that is working but the boys being 9 and 7 its not always easy to be like discrete about us and they have friends they talk to, but so far so good on that end.

well that's sort of my morning so far... wish me luck at my game (games I hope)

Jill
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Old 10-25-2014, 05:17 PM
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Default Well that was more work than it should have been

We won the first game. 4 to 3 wow close one.. I have like 2 and a half hours before my next game... Send me a message and say hello. I would love to hear from anyone!
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Old 10-26-2014, 01:33 PM
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Default Subdivision Halloween party & sunday morning

good morning everyone...

Wow I have to say these people know how to party. I still don't like the idea of not celebrating Halloween on Halloween but I do like to have fun. It really is an all subdivision party.

R and M took the boys trick or treating, I hung out at the house and handed out candy, and made sure any of the grown ups had drinks, access to a bathroom all of that stuff. I was surprised at the lack of like how do you know R and M. I got very few of those, and the questions I did get were satisfied with simple statements about being in college and needing a place to say and R and M being busy and needing help around the house.

After about 9:00 the trick or treating was done, and all the grown ups (picturing myself as a grown up lol) went 3 houses down to one of the neighbors, he is like an internet guy and had the baseball game playing on his garage door, (now that is something I would never think to do.) Its an interesting dynamic about this series, while I am happy to see the Royals doing so well, a few people are really bitter about that team.

My friends started showing up after 9:00 (that's good because that's when I told them to be here) It was good to see all of them. My school friends I see almost everyday, and sometimes away from school, parties, nights when I am out (I am not like a kept girl, I have a social life.) My soccer friends we spend a lot of time together during these tournaments, and after games during the week. I am wondering what I am going to see this morning, one of them was in pretty rare form as she was leaving last night (not driving, he boyfriend was doing that, and I know he was drinking Pepsi all night, I hope she is ready to play.. just like saying)

About the middle of the 6th inning R pulled me aside and said they were going back to their house to hang out on the deck with a few neighbors and their friends. I found my friends and we all went back, I made a bunch of like Costco appetizers. we talked and hung out. As the night went on their circle of friends got smaller but the friends were closer (maybe that's how it works in the real world of grown up parties) by like 11:30 the people there were like asking to help clean up, it was really nice but the kitchen and the deck were not in too bad of shape.

Once the crowd had thinned out R patted her lap, a sign that she wanted me to sit on her lap (or a sign that everyone here knew about our relationship and I was free to she her affection, oaky that just sounds silly but we have looks and stuff like between us. I got myself my first and only glass of wine (todays games are really serious to me, maybe not to some of my teammates lol) I sat in R's lap and she told me M had a date and was getting ready to leave. Not a major surprise and not a bad thing at all. When I got up this morning his car was not in the garage. R and I slept in their bedroom (the boys were spending the night at a one of their friends (she does not want the boys like seeing us together in their bed. so a lot of times even when M is gone we are still in my bedroom. We talked about the party and like compared notes about who we talked to (it sucks we have to do that, but we do it. Nothing was spilled... so no drama sorry, well not really, less drama is always better)

It was nice to be around a table without having to hide, I told a few stories about growing up, on the farm and I made a point to say I was not a fan of having Halloween the week before Halloween, you can argue security and whatever else. I grew up going house to house in a car to see my parents friends until we got into town, then we could go door to door. (sorry it really annoys me that all these houses will be dark on Halloween because a few people don't want to share) At one point I felt R's hand on my lower back (she was like stop beating the dead horse)

So I let someone ask me about my coming out. I was 19 but I knew way before, In high school I really played the game and I tried to like boys, it just didn't work. When I 10 I knew it was girls, when I was 11 I knew it was oaky in my mind (no one else felt that way) when was 13 I was having full blown crushes on girls my age teachers, and oaky a few of my friend's mom's. I never acted on any of these and nothing ever happened. Now in my mind everything happened. (I did a few things maybe I should not have done. If your like interested, you can message me and I might share... I don't know what the line is on this site and I don't want to pole vault over it. I came out when I was 19 and living here. My family took it way better than I expected (the lesbian part... I have not explained this relationship to my Dad or anyone else, other than to say I am seeing a more mature woman. My Dad just wants me to be happy and does not ask a lot of questions. But he never asked questions when I dated boy either lol) so I shared a few stories about that. R got to find out a few things she didn't know.

About 12:30 everyone was gone or about to be gone, R went upstairs to get ready for bed (I don't know why but I always get such a rush when I get to sleep in their bed, its like across between that feeling you get when your someplace you should not be. Am I the only person who gets excited about the idea of being with R in the bed she and M share? I walked the last couple out said good night to them, I cleaned up everything else and started the dishwasher and went upstairs to R's bed.

I got up this morning to a clean quiet house, R had gotten up. I remember her telling me to sleep in alittle. I found her on the deck with the paper (really the paper) and a cigar, that's a pretty common Sunday morning site. Her on the deck with a cup of coffee and a cigar. I got a bowl of cereal and sat with her. It was nice just us listening to the birds and each other...

Oaky now its time to focus on soccer... wish me whatever but I have to go..

Jill
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Old 10-26-2014, 08:58 PM
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Default Second place finish

wow, it was a great tournament, we didn't win, but congratulation's to the girls that did. They played really well. To my friends and teammates. (I hope a few of you create accounts. If for no other reason than to learn a little more about how some really wonderful people live) Thank you all for a wonderful weekend, I had almost as much fun hanging out with you in between games as I did winning. The last game was a tough beat, but we did win 4 out of 5. I am walking away with my head up high. I landed funny on my shoulder so my back might not be so straight lol..

Date night with R tonight, we just talked and pizza and Netflix downstairs is our plan, I promised to wear something she would like. I hope she likes the bra and panty set she got for me last weekend, because comfort, and maybe a bag of frozen peas (for my ankle, but if someone has a better idea for a bag of frozen peas I am all ears) are in my future...

how was everyone else's Sunday? Did you do something fun?

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Old 10-26-2014, 10:25 PM
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Old 10-26-2014, 10:40 PM
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I worked on my lil garden, it's got a gravel covering and I had to clean all the gravel. What a job! and then I worked in between trying to get an IT system to work at home.
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Old 10-27-2014, 03:10 PM
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Growing up on a cattle farm, I spent a lot of time working in the hay in the summers. That is a lot of work... I hope you garden is in better shape. I don't know much about IT projects, but I do hope it worked out..
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Old 10-27-2014, 04:40 PM
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Default Monday Morning, getting everyone off to school and work

Good morning everyone..

First a question. Should I just make like one post and call it like Jill Journal, or keep posting as I have. I noticed people sort of do it both ways. So tell me what you think..

My gosh I am sore I don't know if it's the new toy R used with me last night or the fact that I played 5 soccer games in 3 days but wow I am sore all over.

R had to get up early as her shift changed at work to days. She was not happy to have to get up early, but I did make it easer for her. While she was getting ready I packed her a lunch, and wrote her a note telling her how nice our date was.

Then it was time to get the boys up and ready for the bus. M helped with that, while I got all the laundry going. I walked them to the bus stop (such a pretty day, to bad I will spend most of the day in class) The little guys were pretty excited because Mondays they go to the Science Center (older) and Zoo (younger) I wish I got to go to the Zoo. I got to spend a few minutes chatting with the other Moms about the Halloween party and stuff like that. (It's times like this where I wonder what these women think of me. Do they like think I am like the nanny, or something like that? Someone once asked if I was their niece, I was as honest as I felt comfortable being. I told her no, I am not their niece, I am a girl trying to make my way through college and R and M were kind enough to offer me a job and a place to live. What I wanted to say was. No I am not their niece, I fell in love with R and she and M were kind enough to embrace my love for her and let me be part of their lives. They do pay me for the work I do around the the house, but that's not why I do it. My gosh I sound like such a whiney girl today what's wrong with me today)
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Old 10-27-2014, 05:07 PM
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Typing that out made me a little more emotional than I usually get. More about Monday, in between my classes.
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Old 10-27-2014, 06:59 PM
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Smile Less emotional now

Once the boys were on the bus. I walked back to the house, and tried not to cry. I went up to R and M's bedroom. M had left for work by this time I cuddled with her pillow and got myself in a better frame of mind. I sent R a text and asked for her permission to do something, she gave it. (Plus I knew it would turn her on) after I took a long shower in their shower, and wanting to feel close to her I put on the tshirt she wore to my soccer game on Saturday, and something else of hers. I went downstairs and finished getting dressed.

I met some friends before class and it was nice to get to hang out with them. Talking about what they did this weekend, and stuff like that.

My last class of the day starts soon then it will be home, it's nice enough maybe we can grill for dinner, it might be the last day it's nice enough to eat outside on the deck...

What is everyone else doing for dinner?
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