This is a lot of work. (TP's story, when she feels like updating)

[Penny]

I just finished reading your blog from start to finish. Parts of it resonated for me so much, I read them aloud to my hubby.

I love snuggling down between my guys and listening to them geek out. Their friendship makes me feel all kinds of warm and squishy inside.

I found your thoughts on coming out insightful and pertinent to my own situation, and what you wrote about accepting your relationships rather than ranking them was inspirational and was one of the bits I read to Thumper.

I haven't blogged here because my relationship has been happy and successful. After reading yours, I figure I should.

[SNeacail]

Originally Posted by Penny

I haven't blogged here because my relationship has been happy and successful. After reading yours, I figure I should.

Happy and successful Oh, please do!

[TruckerPete]

Penny, thank you so much for your kind words! I can't wait to read your story.

[Penny]

I quoted your title at the end of my first blog post. It is a lot of work, but it's work worth doing.

[TruckerPete]

Originally Posted by Penny

I quoted your title at the end of my first blog post. It is a lot of work, but it's work worth doing.

That is most definitely the implication I was going for.

[Indigomontoya]

So my love my love I went slightly board crazy...reading and posting and deciding not to post for fear my filter would come off and then I'd be a troll with anything constructive being lost in the mire...anyhoo I just wanted to say after reading some posts I appreciate your understanding and willingness to listen and act on my concerns when we started down this path more now...

Love you very much wifey...

[TruckerPete]

*swoon*

[TruckerPete]

So ... it's been a while!

Okay, let's start with meds. I'm down to roughly a quarter dose of my Cymbalta. It's hard to measure, since it's in bead form. When I forget to take my dose, I still get withdrawal symptoms, so I amd not sure how I'm going to get off. I have a strong suspicion that I'll need to start counting out beads.

Clonazepam is down to a couple of times a week. Olanzapine is still at nothing. That one is done, as far as I'm concerned. The sleeping pills are also at maybe a few times a month. Hurrah!

There have been exactly two days since starting my medication that I've woken up without nasty anxiety. *sigh* That really is the worst part now. I no longer enjoy my morning coffee. I may start cutting it out all together.

It's much easier to wake up now, and my routine is slowly improving in terms of being ready and out the door on time. Baby steps.

I haven't started any sort of exercise yet, but I have noticed that I feel more inclined to do things. Hopefully that inclination will grow past the tipping point.

Since December, I've lost 15 of the 20lbs the olanzapine packed on. I am happy with this progress. I have been watching what I eat and eating smaller portions. I feel full much more quickly, and make sure I acknowledge this feeling and actually stop eating when it happens. Once I get some physical activity into my routine, the weight loss should really kick in.

And poly things ... Well, everything is going well to be perfectly honest. That is why it's hard to update!

I'm going to Mr. A's parents' for Easter. This is thrilling beyond words. I am so happy to be included in their lives and accepted by them, minus the fact that they don't know about Indigo. Ah well. Cross that bridge when we come to it.

I'm so relieved that the long distance is working with Mr. A. We are both making an effort to show the other person that they're in our thoughts and appreciated, while still maintaining our own independent lives. We're pretty awesome at communicating what we need to each other. The distance sucks, but we're doing well. I would really consider this my first successful LDR. All other attempts have resulted in me pining away or becoming too dependent on the other person.

Indigo and I would like to start trying for kids in the fall. As much as I want it, I'm petrified! Mr. A fully supports us, and expected it to happen soon. I hope he will be able to stick around through the radical shift in priorities that will happen with kids in the picture. There will definitely be some serious talks about expectations and changes in the nearish future.

Indigo is still struggling with guilt over the difference in our libidos. I can only help him so much. I can not pressure him, I can reassure him, I can love him, but he's the only one who can stop the guilt. It is difficult to see his pain and not be able to fix it. But, I remind myself that as long as I'm being loving and supporting, he is responsible for his own feelings. I will not own that guilt. I can't. I have enough of my own baggage! We've had some kickass sex this week, so it's nice that our own issues aren't carrying over to that to the same extent they used to.

I have a FWB. I'll call him Rowsdower. We've been seeing each other for about a month, maybe a bit more. It's nice and low key. We talk most days, see each other about once a week, and just have fun. There is definitely a friendship there, but I'm certainly not head over heels gaga for him or anything like that. I care about him, and that's that. We are just enjoying each other's company with no greater expectations. It's quite nice! We only have two rules for our relationship. One, if one of us wants to have sex with someone else, the other party must be informed. Two, if one of us develops deeper feelings for the other, we tell them. So far, no conversations have been needed.

So yeah ... That's my life in a nutshell right now!

[Morningglory629]

Originally Posted by TruckerPete

I'm going to Mr. A's parents' for Easter. This is thrilling beyond words. I am so happy to be included in their lives and accepted by them, minus the fact that they don't know about Indigo. Ah well. Cross that bridge when we come to it.

Congrats! Enjoy! Always good to get some interaction with his loved ones in a positive way. How long have you and Mr A been involved at this point?

Indigo is still struggling with guilt over the difference in our libidos. I can only help him so much. I can not pressure him, I can reassure him, I can love him, but he's the only one who can stop the guilt. It is difficult to see his pain and not be able to fix it. But, I remind myself that as long as I'm being loving and supporting, he is responsible for his own feelings. I will not own that guilt. I can't. I have enough of my own baggage!

Going through this with Hubs. And I must say I haven't been pressuring but it confuses me much of the time. Not sure if I am not pressuring because I want him to work through it himself OR because I have 2rings fulfilling that part of my life.

I have a FWB. I'll call him Rowsdower. We've been seeing each other for about a month, maybe a bit more. It's nice and low key. We talk most days, see each other about once a week, and just have fun. There is definitely a friendship there, but I'm certainly not head over heels gaga for him or anything like that. I care about him, and that's that. We are just enjoying each other's company with no greater expectations. It's quite nice! We only have two rules for our relationship. One, if one of us wants to have sex with someone else, the other party must be informed. Two, if one of us develops deeper feelings for the other, we tell them. So far, no conversations have been needed.

Would you say this is a loving relationship or casual friendship? Curiosity about your definitions of FWB vs having deeper feelings.

Good read so far. Thanks for sharing!

[TruckerPete]

Originally Posted by Morningglory629

Congrats! Enjoy! Always good to get some interaction with his loved ones in a positive way. How long have you and Mr A been involved at this point?

Nine months. Damn it's gone quickly. This has been a busy year!

Originally Posted by Morningglory629

Would you say this is a loving relationship or casual friendship? Curiosity about your definitions of FWB vs having deeper feelings.

Just a casual friendship. Although, I have had loving FWB relationships before. They all fall within the FWB definition for me.