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Old 08-08-2012, 02:04 PM
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even though i want to turn around and tell the dogs to "BE STILL FOR TWO SECONDS!"
Have you noticed that antsy impatient you wants to tell the dogs this? Your dogs are showing you a part of who you are right now. Your situation sounds good overall. You just need to learn how to breathe............ and move with it all.
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Old 08-11-2012, 10:45 AM
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sigh,

everything is mostly fine. both husbands know what is going on. that's great and all but i am tired... mentally. my husband is excited about it all. he's giddy and he talks about it non stop. i am happy for him. at the same time i just want to relax and let things settle. i like my bf and her husband. right now i just want to get back to being friends. i'm too tired to do anything else.

last night was a sleep over for the four of us. not a kinky sleep over. just dinner, movie, and a few drinks then bed... very late. i slipped up after a strong german beer and asked the bf's hubby a silly question. he laughed and before he could answer i told him to forget about it... which he probably did. i didn't. i felt bad about it. nothing big. i just feel as if it was the wrong time. we were alone so no one else knew. i told my husband about it and he was more worried about it then i was.

when i woke up this morning the bf's hubby came down. we always wake up before our spouses. they're lazy

i apologized and made sure i didn't do anything to make him feel strange. he just laughed again and told me all is fine. i trust him and i know he was being honest. if he had a problem with it he would have told me. he is very open and comfy with me so i know he meant what he said. however, i still feel bad about it. that's just how i am. i'll spend a few days walking around in my own little guilt filled world. I'll be okay after that.

i guess i'm just venting again. i told my husband today that i want to chill on the relationship talk. i just need a break.

i do have one question. how do you guys handle getting over the sexual vibe? the three of us are all thinking too hard about the whats, whens, and wheres. i just want to go back to being comfortable with my bf's husband. i am not sure if it is mostly just me but i feel as if i am always sending out fuck me mojo when i am around him. i don't care about sex as much as i care about him and his family. just being in the same room as them makes me as happy as i can be. my problem is that i don't know how to turn the sexy off. laugh if you want... i am right now.

it's like i'm playing a waiting game but i already have what i am waiting for. true friendship. i guess i need to spend some time alone. i miss being alone. with my hubby, my bf and her man, and the dogs and kids around alone time is hard to come by. but i will try. thanks for reading. i'm sure i sound like a dork.
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Old 08-12-2012, 12:30 AM
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bf is generally used for boyfriend on the board....
am I correct in assuming that you are using it as best friend?
I was getting confused. Sorry!!
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Old 08-13-2012, 09:24 AM
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sorry about that guys. i guess i should name them to make it easier. things are going good. still a bit tired but i told my husband (king solomon) that i needed some room to be alone and enjoy my own little nre feelings. he is fine with it. the bff's hubby (puppy power) is doing well, as is his wife (queen amidala).

dinner tomorrow night so i am sure i'll have updates. again, thanks for reading and sharing with me.
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Old 08-13-2012, 02:14 PM
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Puppy Power! hee hee! Awesome!
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Old 08-13-2012, 08:13 PM
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king solomon is having a hard day poor guy. queen amidala is fine. she talked to me today. her main concern was not "ewww!" as i thought it would be. but she wanted to know more about how i find it so easy to "share". it comes natural to me. i know that everyone else is not the same. puppy power is just being himself. playing Wow and not caring about anything.

as much as i love watching king solomon deal with NRE, i hate seeing him worried and anxious. he is worried that the queen and puppy power will not like him anymore if they knew the truth. i keep telling him to relax but i can't get inside of his head and toss a rock into his mental gears. it's just the way he is.

i know all will be well. i don't care if things go to the next level or not. i just love my friends, their beautiful kid (we can call him prince puff n' stuff) and their dog.

i have anxiety too but i know how to handle it. been here, done this a million times now. well, not a million. more like two or three times. but i understand myself and others enough to know that friends don't come cheap. queen amidala told me that she still wants me as her friend... even though king solomon has a huge school boy crush on her. i'm talking like anime school buy crush. lol

tomorrow starts another busy week for us all. i'll be keeping prince puff n' stuff all day with the dogs. everyone else will be hard at work. that will give us time to focus on something other than us. did i mention that puppy power and king solomon work in the same office all day long together? makes for fun times.

i wonder if the mods think i should move this to the blog/log section?
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Old 08-14-2012, 09:06 PM
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dinner was good tonight. i had a great time with prince puff n' stuff. queen amidala was perfect, as she always is. she can multi task better than martha stewart. she made a slow cooker dish that kills. puppy power was very helpful tonight. doing dishes and what not. king solomon is happy and quiet (thank jeebus) and all went well.

i told king solomon that if we all lived together it would be just like tonight. nothing fancy. just everyday stuff. like dishes and dinner, potty training, and taking the dogs out. everyone is happy and tired tonight. as it should be. giggles were shared and comfort was at a high. life.
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Old 08-19-2012, 07:13 AM
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Default are you ready for the queen too?

What if the queen who wants to be your friend no mater what happens wants you too will you let her have you, she sounds like she has already made up her mind.
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Old 08-19-2012, 09:17 AM
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of course I would.
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Old 08-19-2012, 03:04 PM
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From what you have said about her she is quiet, but also said no mater what happens she still wants to be friends with you, this tells me she has already made up her mind about you regardless weather the men are there, you may think she is quiet but I think she is letting you do the talking, ....

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