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Old 08-04-2011, 11:39 PM
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NYC wrote: "I'm not saying this because of being poly or mono or anything, but: How can seeing each other three times a week with calls and texts in between be even remotely considered "part-time?" That seems quite involved to me. It seems you want to be joined at the hip or something, and I can see how that would come across to her as being needy and smothering."

Well NYC.. I know many people would consider 3 days very part time. I fully realize all relationships are different and some people require/need their alone time more than others- perhaps to keep their sanity because they simply can't be around one person for extended periods.
But please, some of us actually enjoy sharing the company of another, a lot of time.... We enjoy interacting, simply feel good being around a kindred spirit (thank you M for that great term ). I don't know why some people have such a hard time believing or rather simply accept that some of us feel joy, closeness and great intimacy all the time when we are with someone we care about. Yes, day in and day out, every day.

Some of us don't consider that "smothering", we call it companionship. Some of us don't consider it "needy", we call it generous and we welcome it with open arms.

Just saying...
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Old 08-05-2011, 12:43 AM
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I would much rather do things with Karma than do them alone. Even our day to day-he's playing video games and I'm on the computer, but we are still sharing space, sharing energy, and available should interest in another activity arise.

Karma needs his space. It is a concept completely foreign to me. I do enjoy some alone time, but I don't even realise I need it until he's gone.

I don't think it makes either of us any more or less needy. It's just who and how we are. We've both adjusted and adapted over the years. And it's not like I ever told him he couldn't have a guys night, or couldn't go do something he wanted. I don't 'need' to have him with me 24/7. It's just something I enjoy.

I think if you are wanting to keep this going you are going to need to adapt, or make this a part time relationship and find someone who can meet those needs for you.

While some goals the two of you have may be the same or similar, some obviously are not and if it affecting her physicaly from carrying the tension, it's time reevaluate things.

It shouldn't be about making yourself less. You should never desire to be less than you in order to please someone else.
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Old 08-05-2011, 01:22 AM
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. . . some of us actually enjoy sharing the company of another, a lot of time.... We enjoy interacting, simply feel good being around a kindred spirit
Met too! But I think of part-time as someone I would only see maybe once every other week, once a month, or something like that. I would think that regularly seeing someone three times a week with contact every day would appear to most people to be a full-time serious relationship. Not saying it's weird to want more than that, but I just think it is odd to call it part-time. Especially with contact via email or text in between... and when it's a bf/gf situation, two people living on their own. Obviously, a spouse or someone you lived with would be different and it'd make sense to want more.

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I don't know why some people have such a hard time believing or rather simply accept that some of us feel joy, closeness and great intimacy all the time when we are with someone we care about. Yes, day in and day out, every day.
Wouldn't being in contact with her on the days you're not physically together take care of that?

I don't have a hard time believing you want to be in close proximity to feel closeness and intimacy, but I also think it's possible to feel those things with less contact if one is secure in oneself and in the relationship. I totally get your point but was just saying that it's possible to feel that connected with less contact, and that I also totally understand your gf's stance that every day is too much. I only mentioned that she might feel smothered because someone else had brought that up before I did -- but it could be that the pain she's feeling is not really about the frequency of being with you but about the fact that you're feeling unsatisfied with what she wants. Maybe the feeling that she will always disappoint you is what is draining on her.

BTW, is this a poly or a mono/poly situation?
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Old 08-05-2011, 01:24 AM
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Mohegan,
Thanks for standing up for those of us "full-timers".
Your thoughts are helpfull. IG
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Old 08-05-2011, 03:57 AM
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NYC wrote: "Wouldn't being in contact with her on the days you're not physically together take care of that?"

My response - Nope, not for me. I understand what you are saying I think. I understand the concept but I am most happy and desire everyday physical ie. live in contact.

You brought up a good point about bf and gf vs. Being married or at least living together. Your right, we do not live together nor are we married. None of this is a surprise to me... M has stayed her course consistantly. She has never led me to believe she wanted a live in situation and has always maintained more or less utter bafflement as to why anyone would want to get married... I on the other hand love the idea of being married... I was married twice, once perhaps to young and the other marriage I ruined by cheating. I learned from both of them, unfortunatly at a great cost, about what I want and need. Now I am being open and honest about it.


Well.. That's not quite acurate. She can not picture herself getting married, even as a child she says it didn't make sense to her.


I know all this... However, M is the only person I have ever known who truly accepts me as I am... I feel foolish for not being able to let go.

NYC wrote: "but it could be that the pain she's feeling is not really about the frequency of being with you but about the fact that you're feeling unsatisfied with what she wants. Maybe the feeling that she will always disappoint you is what is draining on her."
i believe this to be true...

NYC wrote: "BTW, is this a poly or a mono/poly situation?"
Niether really... M said she was "done" talking of an ongoing but improving double standard issue I have( a great source of frustration for me that I have trouble dealing with her "others" when I have my own "others").. Although I have Significantly downgraded it to the point of acceptance with some joy felt that she is enjoying the 'company' of another. I like to talk... Need to talk.. She is tired of it. I have tried to honor that.
So basicly we are "taking a break", I hav'nt seen her for over two weeks, some texts and an email.
Anyway, M has a "favorite bud" that lives about 2 hours a way that she communicates with almost daily ( I think) texts mostly ( he's a good guy), and they get together every month or so, she communicates with a couple of guys farily regularly that she's met online but hasn't met in person. She has recently started communicating with an old friend and they went out to diner recently and I think she has a diner date this weekend with one of her online friends.

I have an old friend that was "more" that I see every other week or so for a beer. She has 2 significant others that she wouldn't disclose that she and I were physical so I stopped the sexual aspect and have been t
encouraging her to be truthful with them. No more deciet for me... also have two mf couples that I get together with every few weeks for threesomes. I recently started meeting with one of the couples wife alone *AT HER HUSBANDS REQUEST* and her consent for an hour or so before her husband joins us... I was aprehensive about this but he really seems to like thinking of she and I being together alone then joining in. A big part of my couples thing is I really like helping the couple enjoy each other even more. Knowing I
helped give them together as a couple pleasure is a large part of it for me.
I honestly don't know if that is poly... I know it's not mono!

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Old 08-05-2011, 05:43 AM
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IG, for a moment when reading this I thought you must have been someone I know. Much of your story sounds just like his, but he is 4 or 5 years down the road from where you are now. Naturally everyone's life is unique, but here's how things turned out for my friend and his girlfriend. For 4 or 5 years, they were in a relationship (not open). He wanted her to move in with him. She wanted to keep her own home an hour or so away. She would come stay with him 3 nights a week. He always wanted more. Sometimes she said she would eventually want more too, and sometimes she said she just couldn't. A few times they broke up over it, and got back together. Several months ago they finally called it quits, after years of struggle, and it has been terrible for both of them. They love each other dearly but the constant push-pull made it too stressful all the time. I think if they had ended it much sooner they would have saved themselves a lot of heartache and grief.

Can you love your girlfriend as a friend (with or without the extras) and seek someone else for your full time partner?
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Old 08-05-2011, 06:47 AM
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IG, if you want a kindred spirit romantic relationship then you need to pursue it with someone who wants the same thing. Because anything less is not going to satisfy you in the way you want it too. And you will always wonder what a relationship like that would be like.

I was once in a relationship like you are, and I knew deep down that it was not what I really wanted. I think you know this too. The girl you're with will not satisfy your relationship needs in the way you want it. It is upsetting to come to this realisation but it's the truth and it's better to face up to the truth rather than be in denial. You should not sell yourself short, because being in that kind of relationship is as awesome as you dream of. I'm forever grateful that my previous relationship ended because the guy I'm with now is beyond my dreams of my perfect "beloved".

What you do with your current relationship is up to you. If you're into poly, then you can continue it, but you might want to gently end it and have some single time to yourself to clear your head and refocus.
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Old 08-05-2011, 12:41 PM
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There are probably some married couples out there that spend less time together than people who see each other a few times a week. Some men may actually see their secretaries....sorry, administrative assistants, more than they see their wife. I guess you can't categorize a "full time" relationship as seeing someone every day.

I typically spend two nights a week with the GF, heading to her place straight from work. This means at most I am with the wife for only five nights, unless I have another date, or she has a date herself, in which case it is even less. Then there are all the other activities she may want to do, which take her out of the house. None of this makes my wife a part time relationship. Seeing less of each other has not diminished our relationship.

I do understand the desire to be in your girlfriend's life everyday, after all, that is why I left my country to be with my wife. It's that comforting feeling of knowing there is somebody at home, waiting for you. Personally, I don't like being alone. whenever the wife is out on the date, and I am alone for the night (i.e. kids are in bed), I also feel a little lonely. Yet, even if the wife was at home with, it is possible we are both busy doing our "own stuff." Human want ae weird. It's like wanting a new toy, and then never playing it when we finally have it.

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Old 08-05-2011, 02:28 PM
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I love spending all my time with my partner. Even if we are set to seperate tasks (him working in the yard and me cooking dinner) the energy of his presence is comforting to me. Some call it co-dependent, maybe it is. We both feel the same way so it works for us. Because we are also poly and want to date other people it is hard. Dating requires making a conscious choise to take time apart to foster new relationships that obviously aren't going to immediately meld into our day to day lives.

I have learned to accept people that I am dating as part-time..they don't need to fill the full-time role that my live-in partner fills. I enjoy each relationship for what it is and what it brings me.

I would suggest...and this is only my opinion...that you carry on with this woman that you obviously care a great deal about, take it for what it is, enjoy the time that you spend together and also leave yourself open to finding someone who can meet your needs for something live-in. I would agree that there is nothing wrong with wanting this. i just wouldn't want to give up on the great connection that you have with this woman to get it.

My two cents....
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Old 08-05-2011, 11:37 PM
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Wow...
I don't have time right now to be specific, but thank you all for trying to help me. I am truly touched that you have taken the time to offer your thoughts.
M can simply let her conundrums go with a smile it seems. Mine drive me nuts... but I usually figure them out and come to terms with them. This one has a good grip.
You all are helping me see different options. Thank you. Keep em comming! More later... IG
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