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Old 03-25-2014, 12:41 PM
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miss pixi has a new man she's interested in. She's only been talking online to him for a few days, but for hours a day, she told me. They already have a date set up for Saturday. Normally she doesn't move this fast, but she's more confident these days, and wants to meet more cool people.

Her sub, Karl, doesn't want to date, go out for dinner or activities. All he seems to want is to come over very occasionally when he feels courageous, for a D/s session. So, not much going on there other than chatting online.

I hope her date goes well. Once again, I am not jealous or feeling weird in any way about her dating. I see she has some excitement and I am getting the spillover, but I know my special place in her heart and just want her to have a good time. From what she tells me, and the pic she shared, he seems respectful and a good match.

Next topic: sexual fantasizing. I know many of us fantasize during masturbation. Many also might fantasize about someone else while having sex with our partner. Oddly I don't feel a need to fantasize about someone else while having sex with one of my partners. I have come to realize that my true sexual nature was so undeveloped when I was with my ex-husband for all those years. I used to get major crushes on friends, acquaintances, celebrities, since I felt so judged by my ex, because of my tendency to get crushes! The more he disapproved, the more I felt judged and far from him, and the more I'd crush on someone else.

Now that I feel so accepted for who I am, I never fantasize during sex, and even have a hard time coming up with a good fantasy during masturbation.
Kind of weird! Something new to get used to.
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I'm a 58 year old woman with 2 partners:
miss pixi, my live-in gf, 36 (together since Jan '09)
Ginger, bf, 61, married, lives nearby (together since Jan '12)
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Old 04-12-2014, 12:51 PM
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miss pixi had her 2nd date with her new interest last weekend and is having third date tonight. She even spent the night last weekend. He can't do an overnight tonight though, and she was disappointed!

She's really into him. He is a Dom and she seems to find his style right up her alley. They chat for an hour or two online almost every night. It seems to be very positive for her, she is completely infatuated. She's been treating me fine despite her NRE, I don't feel neglected. It's definitely a change for us though. She's had 2 bfs in the 5 years we've been together but no one who met her needs for kink this well.

I guess I should nickname him. Ugh... can't think. Since I am a switch myself I have conflicting feelings about him. The subby part of me feels I should also submit to him, the Dommey part of me feels suspicious and competitive, lol.

No new interests of note for Ginger, although he had me take a picture of him for his "female" profile on OKC. He's genderqueer and has had a pictureless nearly wordless female profile for years. Just a social experiment. Last week he put up one of the pix I took of him, which is him from the back, in just a pair of my underpants, with his long hair cascading down over his shoulders. He also added a bit of text to his profile. He has been inundated with visitors and messages! Hundreds of visitors, maybe 100 or more messages from all over the East Coast and beyond. It's pretty funny. Many short men enamoured with a "tall woman," since he put his actual height (6'1") on his profile.

He ignores the jerks and chats with the nicer seeming guys and generally makes it clear in chat that he's not as female as they might think. His profile does hint at this too, if men are savvy enough to get it. It's kind of fun to see him experience what women go through on OKC, first hand.
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Old 04-12-2014, 01:01 PM
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And in my own news, I did go on a coffee date with PolyGuy, mentioned above. We chatted online for a couple weeks and I decided to take the plunge. We met at coffee shop quite near miss pixi's old apartment in greater Boston, where he lives.

Seems he and his gf have been together 10 years and have always been nominally poly. But in November of last year she got romantically involved with a friend, who became a roommate (!) quite soon after. They also have one more roommate who is unaware the woman is in relationship with 2 men.

I wasn't over the moon for this guy after our date. I do believe, like Ginger said, he lives too much in his head. He's not seeming very sexual or even physically affectionate, from what he said and how he acted. He's kinda cute, but I prefer leaner men and he's on the chubby side. Nice hair though, 46, childfree. Smart, a lefty and all that. Since he's really a poly noob as far as practice, we talked a lot about poly in general. He only joined OKC in Feb, 2 months ago, just getting his feet wet. I was his first actual date.

I felt disappointed after the date, since there were no physical sparks. Part of me feels very stupid to even be dating-- I felt polysaturated even before the date! And since I didn't even get a sexual charge out of it, I felt even more let down. Of course, he could just be a platonic friend... however, do I even want one more platonic friend? Not really. Maybe. LOL

He wrote to me right after our date, saying he wanted to see me again, and since then has suggested he comes out my way to go to one of my local cafes. Hmm... Good thing I like coffee.
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I'm a 58 year old woman with 2 partners:
miss pixi, my live-in gf, 36 (together since Jan '09)
Ginger, bf, 61, married, lives nearby (together since Jan '12)

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Old 04-16-2014, 07:47 PM
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Well, so much for Ginger not wanting a relationship with any of his dance partners. Carla has been pursuing him, FB chatting him, flirting mightily. I have seen her eyeing him over the past few weeks at events, and I just knew she had a big crush on him!

So, it seems to be a thing. She is quite young, mid 30s I'd say. Married, 3 young children. Once the flirting got to a certain point, he asked her if this would be ok with her h, and she said they were mono since 2000, but last fall she got him to open the marriage since there was this guy she wanted to be with. That didn't work out, and now she has set her sights on Ginger. Yesterday she chatted him while her kids were napping, and then again as soon as they were down for the night. Keeping him up til 1am, and today he is tired.

Developing story...
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I'm a 58 year old woman with 2 partners:
miss pixi, my live-in gf, 36 (together since Jan '09)
Ginger, bf, 61, married, lives nearby (together since Jan '12)
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Old 04-16-2014, 10:15 PM
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Which brings me back to the title of my blog, Simultaneous NRE, this time my 2 partners both have new interests. And I don't, really. PolyGuy isn't much of a chatter. He has car troubles and won't be able to come out for a while, and... as I said, I am getting more of a friend vibe than an "amour" vibe from him and towards him.
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I'm a 58 year old woman with 2 partners:
miss pixi, my live-in gf, 36 (together since Jan '09)
Ginger, bf, 61, married, lives nearby (together since Jan '12)
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