Thanks NYC
Let's talk about sex, baby.
I saw Prof on Monday all excited and full of ideas after his spanking bottoms weekend. I am kind of glad I didn't go, it all seemed a bit public to me and I would have had to talk to people.
He got some soft rope and tied me up with a few simple but very pretty twists. Played a bit, had a bit of sex. In his words, " I get to tie you up and fuck you as hard as I want." I said you can fuck me harder than that. The actual sex part was less than 10 minutes while tied up. Then he untied me, oh goody, I thought, here comes the good part. Nope, he was done. Wanted some after-play, holding and chatting. At one point he held me close, looked deep into my eyes and said, "I really like you, Atlantis." I responded with, " I really like you to Professor, can we hold hands sometime?" So junior high. "I really like you."
I really want some sex that lasts more than 10 minutes.
Don't know what to do, he knows there is an issue, takes Cialis, so there is little to be gained by me pointing out that the things aren't quite right in that department. I am wondering if all the BD play is a bit of a cover. I played with the idea that I am not sexy or attractive enough. So I booty called Kip and we had a couple of hours and great play and sex on Wednesday. It may be only one data point in this particular study, but it did affirm that I can go for hours with the right partner. I do however remember that Yo said I was "appettive" and a very energetic lover. It was a bit much for him, he had the ED issues too. So what do I say to Prof? Every time it has come up, or down
he has an excuse, tired, didn't eat enough, stress, that was great but he is satisfied.
Kip plays tennis 3+ days a week, golfs and is in good shape. Despite my smoking I am also in very good shape. (12 days and counting!!!) Prof does not exercise, I have tried to get him to do some active stuff with me and he doesn't want to. He has been very fit at points in his life so not like exercise is foreign to him.
Side step. The quitting smoking is so very hard. I quit for 5 years and started up again about 2 years ago. I keep expecting it get easier. It is not. Thank the gods for nicotine gum. I keep telling myself it is for the whales! I will not go on the boat jonesing for a smoke the whole time. People laugh when I tell them the motivation. Should be more about health and long life than an boat trip. lol.
Back to sex, or lack thereof. So, at this point, I am aware I like sex, a lot of it and pretty aggressive is best. By aggressive I don't mean painful, though the biting and scratching is the icing on the cake. I mean being completely dominated by my partner, and going hard at it. I love that energy of aggressive desire. Fuck like the world is about to end, have some slow and gentle breaks, but then amp up the volume again. I have extended this thinking to mean I don't want to have sex with OKJoe. I like him and don't want to have bad sex. Maybe he is a wild demon in bed but I doubt it. I was flirting a little last night by text then backed away. He seems very gentle and sweet and wants to take things slowly. He said he would be forward and hold my hand tonight. Still waters run deep and all that but....
I refer back to his OK profile to remind myself not to be a bossy boots. I did have to ask him for a day and time for kayaking, I have things to do this weekend. He likes to plan later in the week, I plan and schedule constantly. I do not want to be the driving force, I can be like a Mack truck. Splat. Then lose respect. He did ask me out for next weekend too, a comedy night in the city, it would involve a sitter. Is he "sitter worthy"? Think Elaine in Seinfeld
. Yup it's for an activity. I'll fork out for it.
I will have to see Prof sometime over the weekend, I rode the scooter to my friend's house, a near perfect run. Then I couldn't get the beast to stay started for the trip home. Throttle full open and it kept dying. We could push it to his in 10 minutes, he lives very close to her. He texted mid-week to say he might have Saturday and/or Sunday night open. I feel I should say something about the sex, but would rather just avoid him. How mature.
So excited to see OKJOe tonight and go to the show. I have been playing the artist all week, bit country, bit blues, bit bluegrassy, bit rock. I will dance and try not to be too flirty, he is awfully cute.