I can't get an apartment because I have no job. I only make around $200 a month donating plasma which is nowhere near enough for rent anywhere.
A blunt question; What is
preventing you from changing this?
She really does love me and I want to make it work. I am going to tell her if she wants me to trust her she has to give me reasons to trust her.
Another blunt and frank question;
If you
cant leave because you have no means to support yourself financially, and you
wont leave because emotionally you cant stand be be alone, and you have a knack for absorbing her dishonesty, lies and ultimatums, Then
why should she bother giving you a reason to trust her?
Hate to say it kid, Unless there is some kind of actual consequence to the way she treats you, then your input doesn't actually matter to her.
Look at it this way:
you caught her (very likely) cheating (again) and she does what again?
I was basically told that I have this week to decide if I can trust her or not and if I can't trust her then we can't be together.
You've also stated that you cant/wont leave her because you cant stand being alone AND have nowhere else to go. So this leaves you really only one course of action. Which is
compliance.
She's obviously very well aware of this, and using it against you.
read that line about five or six times until it sinks in.
I want to trust her. I love her and want to be with her. But I can't trust her when she keeps lying over and over again.
you are correct. Your "wants" are noble intentions, even though the latter part of your statement is an impossibility.
If I'm reading things correctly you are in your early 20s. Dude, life goes on, partners come and go, and in the end we're only stuck dealing with one person consistently in live,
Ourselves.