From my Blog
I was requested to I copy this piece from my blog over here. I guess it does qualify as success and happiness.
I just have to say how amazing it is to have my husband back! And really back, not kinda back. We had problems for years and slapped band-aids on it and moved on. Moving to Maryland kind of caused all the band-aids to fall off and pieces of us as a couple to go with them.
So tonight, Karma and I had a small talk about things, like why he isn't having sex with g/f, just b/c I asked. Given his track record, me asking him not to doesn't mean much.
He said it was b/c he remembered how amazing we were together. How great our relationship could be, and he wanted that back. So he was trying to earn back my trust, b/c we work better that way. Without it, part of us gets lost.
I am married to the most amazing man. I wish I could record it and every time someone nastily asks why I am still here, and why I put up with it, I want to play the recording. I want scream, this is why! B/c we've both made some pretty big mistakes, but our love held us together, our love helped us forgive and learn from those mistakes, and our love is worth any battle.
I was reading an old journal I found yesterday and was amazed at how unhappy I was, and how I managed to forget. Every page was about a fight, or feeling unloved, neglected. Like I was living with a careless roommate instead of a husband. I cried when I read that on our anniversary in 2009 we didn't kiss all day! We went to dinner with his parents, came home and went our seperate ways!
Dear Goddess, no wonder we fell apart! Not even a kiss on our damn anniversary? And that was before he met g/f, so at that time the affairs were flings. But obviously, we were broken.
Now I have my husband back. I hope he feels like he has his wife back. I hope he knows how much this means to me, how grateful I am that we chose to rebuild, instead of walk away. I know he loves me, just by saying it. I believe it again. I hope he knows how much I appreciate the patience and care he has given me the last few months, and will continue to give as we walk through this. I married an amazing man, I am so blessed, and my heart is just swelling with love tonight.
There's a quote from an old Waylon Jennings song "Goodhearted Woman, Goodtiming Man" "With teardrops and laughter they pass through this world hand in hand."
So true. I love you, Karma! More today than ever. Thank you!