HotMamma111
New member
Though I've been fascinated and read about new relationship types and poly relationships, I'm pretty new to living it. My partner (of one year) and myself are exploring our first poly relationship together, and have been taking baby steps over the last six months. We've been taking care to check in around dates, communicated expectations and agreements, and both want each other to be fully happy and free to grow, love, and continue a shared path.
The extent of our poly experiences extended to going on chill dates, and playing with others at parties, often with each other present. We haven't yet delved into having intimate partners or serious boyfriends or girlfriends.
Things have recently changed however, as I'm now expecting his child and am 10 weeks pregnant. We have not dialogued a real conversation around expectations during this current journey, but for myself, am already feeling sensitive, raw and really unable to fathom exploring poly in any deep way. My body is changing, and am wanting to delve deeper into deepening our connection and bond between each other.
With my reluctant blessing, he's been on a second date (to my knowledge) with a woman, after I've already expressed my sentiments around being pregnant and wanting more connection. It's harder for me, as I'm not feeling like the sexiest creature to continue romping (while dealing with extra weight, nausea and general unease), so feelings of jealousy have started to come into play.
Before he left, he finally expressed how happy he is to be with me, and started expressing some deep feelings of gratitude for our connection. But he has now yet to come home, and may possibly be out all night on his first overnight date.
I'm beginning to regret all of this, as I'm feeling like a break to just connect with eachother is what I'm needing, while I'm feeling he's scared of losing his freedom. While I love him, this is also extremely painful for me to process.
Does anyone have some guidance they can share in navigating these waters?
Much love and blessings.
The extent of our poly experiences extended to going on chill dates, and playing with others at parties, often with each other present. We haven't yet delved into having intimate partners or serious boyfriends or girlfriends.
Things have recently changed however, as I'm now expecting his child and am 10 weeks pregnant. We have not dialogued a real conversation around expectations during this current journey, but for myself, am already feeling sensitive, raw and really unable to fathom exploring poly in any deep way. My body is changing, and am wanting to delve deeper into deepening our connection and bond between each other.
With my reluctant blessing, he's been on a second date (to my knowledge) with a woman, after I've already expressed my sentiments around being pregnant and wanting more connection. It's harder for me, as I'm not feeling like the sexiest creature to continue romping (while dealing with extra weight, nausea and general unease), so feelings of jealousy have started to come into play.
Before he left, he finally expressed how happy he is to be with me, and started expressing some deep feelings of gratitude for our connection. But he has now yet to come home, and may possibly be out all night on his first overnight date.
I'm beginning to regret all of this, as I'm feeling like a break to just connect with eachother is what I'm needing, while I'm feeling he's scared of losing his freedom. While I love him, this is also extremely painful for me to process.
Does anyone have some guidance they can share in navigating these waters?
Much love and blessings.