So deep down I believe this is something I always contemplated but feared as well, coming from the norms I grew up in. I have been in a relationship for almost 4 years with my boyfriend and have recently given the green light to open our relationship. I'm still very hesitant and don't want to know a lot of details on my boyfreind's end of things, on the other hand he loves knowing all of my juicy details. I can get very jealous, while he is fine. Its kinda driving me a little crazy as I feel I have to parts of me fighting to be heard. The one part still holding onto the social norms and the other wanting to explore different people.