LethalTender
New member
Now to the more difficult part of all of this... Having posted an introduction (one that I still admit, has left me feeling awkward) I am... now at the part where I offer up my life and my concerns... and then frankly ask a few (okay more like a multitude of) questions... aHEhm... I have been married for nine years... Sadly... I am finding it difficult to quite discuss the nature of my marriage just yet... and I apologize... however... I have allways found myself more... comfortable around women... and to no little extent... I am a consumate flirt... do forgive the rambling nature of this thread but... I have often... described myself... as... "the only Idealist/Realist/Romantic you will ever know"... yet the part that seems to get me in the most trouble... is that I can not seem to keep my heart... out of anything... and all to easily I find myself becoming emotionally attached people that become.. social and/or romantic... to the best of my ability to describe how I feel... I... LOVE... to LOVE... and I LOVE... being LOVED... I desire... intimacy... and the closer that I feel to any one person... the more that desire becomes a want to express that sexually... to validate the feelings that are felt in the most intimate way possible... I have... come to learn through many painfull choices and mistakes... that I have made in my life... that ultimately it is through the power of honesty... and open communication that true acceptance and intimacy can be fostered... that the indecisive guttering flame of love can be fanned into a roaring inferno... however... I still have so much to learn... and come to grips with... there remains so much yet that I am... trying to understand... be that as it may... I... apologize for how... erratic and inconcise this... whole thread has turned out... I fear that its.. become more of an emotional venting... a clearing of the mind and the heart... but.. for whomever has the patience to read this... thank you... please know that I will get my act together and properly ask for help... but... for now... I am... just simply appreciative to have a... possible audience...