Orlandobif
Member
Not sure where this musing is going other than to ask if it feels this way to others.
You know that search for "my people"? That place where there are more things in common and a reasonable amount of acceptance? My list of people types have both grown and narrowed. Once I find poly, then subset bisexual, then subset sex positive and the list narrows with each preference. I find a little part of me in each of the four distinct communities I visit and yet I am a little different than the core group. Something other groups share or tolerate but does not reflect me. I don't need a reflection unless I try to date. Then I need acceptance of all of them. Poly is the most comfortable and yet the more knowledge I have, the more experience and the older I get the less satisfied I am. I get a little taste of what I want then I feel empty as it is not sharable or sustainable. I know many here are part of several other communities and wondered if the bits and pieces are enough or you need more of it to be in one place. Sometimes I just want to be simple in my needs.
You know that search for "my people"? That place where there are more things in common and a reasonable amount of acceptance? My list of people types have both grown and narrowed. Once I find poly, then subset bisexual, then subset sex positive and the list narrows with each preference. I find a little part of me in each of the four distinct communities I visit and yet I am a little different than the core group. Something other groups share or tolerate but does not reflect me. I don't need a reflection unless I try to date. Then I need acceptance of all of them. Poly is the most comfortable and yet the more knowledge I have, the more experience and the older I get the less satisfied I am. I get a little taste of what I want then I feel empty as it is not sharable or sustainable. I know many here are part of several other communities and wondered if the bits and pieces are enough or you need more of it to be in one place. Sometimes I just want to be simple in my needs.