I had a brief chat with Kip today. No news really and I put in as much effort as he did, which was not much. However, I did start craving curry, Pavlovian response I am very into the little spinach cakes, hara kebab, they have at the lunch buffet, dipped in tamarind sauce. Heaven on a plate.
Prof is coming round to screw my dishwasher back into the counter top, should I say something? But I want to avoooooid it, waaaaaah, though admittedly it was me that brought it up in the first place. This is so ridiculous.
He is so very kind to me, I feel it is unbalanced due to the finances involved, but he says he it evens out cause I let him do pretty much whatever he wants sexually. Again, unbalanced cause I absolutely love it.
I still think that love is not allowed, that he wants to be friends with just a little more. Love is a burden. It is too soon after Ms Text dying. Don't ask for anything that he can't give. I was so surprised he said ( but did not) in the first place and possibly more surprised that he said it when I asked.
It was so vivid, the memory of him saying it was so vivid, down to the the physiological response. I had to ask. It doesn't seem to have messed up anything too badly because he did offer to fix the dishwasher tonight, I didn't ask. I thought I wouldn't see him till Thursday.
"I want to know you intimately in a way so that we both understand each other"
"I want to share every aspect of my life including my feelings with you"
"And I won't run screaming if you upset me, we'll try to work things out"
"I care about you to the point that I will make an effort to take your feelings into consideration with everything that I do"
That is the definition that Joe gave me. I don't agree with much about the first, or the "every aspect" part of 2. Yes to 3 to some degree, though obviously a dig at me dumping him, and yes to some degree to the fourth.
He is seeing someone who declared their mad love for him after 4 weeks, but she is divorcing her third husband so I an mot taking her as a good example of understanding love.
Too much use of absolutes, every, all, etc. Is that love? Definitions of love are so personal. It needs clarification. I am annoying myself with this
Prof is coming round to screw my dishwasher back into the counter top, should I say something? But I want to avoooooid it, waaaaaah, though admittedly it was me that brought it up in the first place. This is so ridiculous.
He is so very kind to me, I feel it is unbalanced due to the finances involved, but he says he it evens out cause I let him do pretty much whatever he wants sexually. Again, unbalanced cause I absolutely love it.
I still think that love is not allowed, that he wants to be friends with just a little more. Love is a burden. It is too soon after Ms Text dying. Don't ask for anything that he can't give. I was so surprised he said ( but did not) in the first place and possibly more surprised that he said it when I asked.
It was so vivid, the memory of him saying it was so vivid, down to the the physiological response. I had to ask. It doesn't seem to have messed up anything too badly because he did offer to fix the dishwasher tonight, I didn't ask. I thought I wouldn't see him till Thursday.
"I want to know you intimately in a way so that we both understand each other"
"I want to share every aspect of my life including my feelings with you"
"And I won't run screaming if you upset me, we'll try to work things out"
"I care about you to the point that I will make an effort to take your feelings into consideration with everything that I do"
That is the definition that Joe gave me. I don't agree with much about the first, or the "every aspect" part of 2. Yes to 3 to some degree, though obviously a dig at me dumping him, and yes to some degree to the fourth.
He is seeing someone who declared their mad love for him after 4 weeks, but she is divorcing her third husband so I an mot taking her as a good example of understanding love.
Too much use of absolutes, every, all, etc. Is that love? Definitions of love are so personal. It needs clarification. I am annoying myself with this
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