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Old 11-06-2015, 12:06 AM
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Saint Francis And The Sow

The bud
stands for all things,
even for those things that don't flower,
for everything flowers, from within, of self-blessing;
though sometimes it is necessary
to reteach a thing its loveliness,
to put a hand on its brow
of the flower
and retell it in words and in touch
it is lovely
until it flowers again from within, of self-blessing;
as Saint Francis
put his hand on the creased forehead
of the sow, and told her in words and in touch
blessings of earth on the sow, and the sow
began remembering all down her thick length,
from the earthen snout all the way
through the fodder and slops to the spiritual curl of the tail,
from the hard spininess spiked out from the spine
down through the great broken heart
to the blue milken dreaminess spurting and shuddering
from the fourteen teats into the fourteen mouths sucking and blowing beneath
them:
the long, perfect loveliness of sow.


© 1980 by Galway Kinnell
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Old 11-06-2015, 12:17 AM
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I Do Not Love These Wounds

I do not love these wounds because they were given me by god.
Or because they were meant to be or inevitable.
Or because they conceal an indecipherable Meaning
Way down deep Somewhere.
Or because of some mythical past life or godforsaken I Ching or Tarot
Crackpot. Not because of a palm reader or Church Preacher or Devil Worshiper
Or my astrologial chart. Or because of fucking Karma. Certainly not because of Karma. No. First, I earned this love by long suffering and lostness without
Magical Sailboats whisking us into Heaven.
Then I grew weary of my tightly clenched Prize.
And now I love them only because I can
And because of the simple peasant gold in them.
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Old 11-12-2015, 01:11 AM
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"Love is always a matter of learning how to live in an unknown land."

-- Martín Prechtel





from - http://www.floweringmountain.com/bol...hen/index.html
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Old 11-12-2015, 01:17 AM
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Here is the whole paragraph from which that lovely quote was derived.:
"Love is always a matter of learning how to live in an unknown land. It is not just translation or about being secure in what one knows, but about learning how to give a true gift to what one loves by learning what it loves. Love is always about learning the Nature of things."
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Old 11-12-2015, 08:26 PM
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This afternoon I see that I've simply been "through the ringer" when it comes to dating, hanging out... or wanting to meet someone else / new. I've had so many dashed hopes that any idea of hope seems rather pathetic at this point. I don't want it to be a "story" if it is one; and I don't want to make it into a "story" if it hasn't hardened into one already. But I can say I'm very tired of the routine, indeed.

There are those who believe in this thing called "the law of attraction," in which it is supposed that we're all directly involved in "creating our own reality with our thoughts / feelings." And I'm sure there is a kernel of truth in that, but I tend to interpret it psychologically rather than in terms of hocus–pocus or abracadabra mind magic. I know that if a person believes X is not possible for him or her, it generally won't be -- because he or she will not allow it to be so. But I don't believe that if I believe in the Tooth Fairy or Santa Clause leaving a billion dollars in a briefcase on my front porch that there is some kind of damned "law" of the universe which must make it come true.

If I believe you don't like me, I'll see you as not liking me -- even if my belief is false. That's psychology, not Fairy Princess Magic Pixie Dust. And I'll likely push away people who DO like me if I wrongly imagine them as finding me pitiful or ugly. Again, psychology.

Ahh, f*%ck it. It may simply be I'm living in the wrong town (though I can hardly leave here -- given what I've got going which I'm committed to). Or maybe I'm in the wrong culture? But I can't seem to stop wanting there to be another love in my life. So ... Ahh, f*%k it.
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Old 11-13-2015, 08:18 AM
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I'm sad for you River that it is hard for you to find what you seek in love. I hope that you are able to find somebody else to love who loves you just as much in return.

I tend to interpret the whole "creating our own reality" in a psychological way too.
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Old 11-14-2015, 12:45 AM
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Thanks I.P.

I'm VERY lucky. I have LOTS of loving friends, and some of them I can cuddle with too. When I count my blessings I have to acknowledge that I've been handed (and welcomed) so very many of those.

Funny thing. I'm missing fresh sloppy kisses, anyway. They're the BEST! Cuddles with these are the bee's knees ... and make my knees weak. I adore it when I can't stand up 'cause my knees are wobbly.

I have Kevin in my life, and he's so extra super special to me ... but after twenty years I seldom have much knee trouble around him and his hugs and kisses. A man wants to get drunk on something other than tequila or wine now and then, as it blows out the liver when overdone.
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Old 11-14-2015, 05:21 PM
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http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/jewel/kisstheflame.html

Just sharing this as your post made my mind go straight to a line of these lyrics.

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Old 11-14-2015, 05:57 PM
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Thanks Evie! That's beautiful.






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Old 11-16-2015, 03:36 AM
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I never would have guessed that so many people would be so quick to dismiss a person's affections simply because they are polyamorous.

I want to celebrate polyamory, but it turns out to be a rather arid place to dwell. I had not thought.... I did not know.

I want to live on PolyPlanet. This one is a bit too narrowly crafted for my heart, flesh and bones.
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