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Old 08-08-2017, 07:07 PM
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Both of the cats are in here now. They're friends. Earlier today they were chasing each other back and forth across the house. See? Friends.

It's 77 right now (12:07 p.m.). It will get up to 89 or 90 at about 5:00 p.m. ... then from Friday to Monday is a cooling trend. (Today is Tuesday. In my time zone.) The rain in the forecast has been pushed forward a day, but it's still coming up.

This concludes my riport.
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Old 08-10-2017, 09:55 PM
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My anxiety level today is higher than usual ... I wish there was some hard liquor sitting around or some cannabis tincture. There's an unopened bottle of wine in the fridge and I'd love to drink the whole thing. But I'm trying to behave.

It's pretty hot out there today, 86 and scheduled to go up a few more degrees. However, on Sunday (right now it's Thursday at 2:55 p.m. in this time zone), the predicted high is 70 flat. Ahhhh

Now if I could just get some anxiety relief.
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Old 08-12-2017, 01:34 AM
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I have a brother who has been in prison for quite a few years. He has a chance to get out in about two years, but first he has to complete a treatment program. And before he can do that, he has to live, for an unspecified amount of time, in the worst possible part of the Utah prison system. The building he's in right now has been condemned for a long time; rather than bother replacing it, they just pay the fine every year for continuing to use it. There is no heat in the winter, and no relief in the summer. None of the windows can be opened although a number of them have the glass broken out. The prisoners have to remain in their cells for 23 hours a day. Now, I know that my brother broke the law, and he knew there were consequences if he got caught (which he obviously did). But this new turn of events puts a knot in my stomach. I don't want anyone to suffer like that, and this really drives it home for me. I'm an atheist, so I don't even have prayer for comfort.

For quite a few years, he has been in the prison in Gunnison, where conditions were pretty good for a prison. This move is the starkest contrast possible, and is very sudden, I have only been hearing about it a little yesterday and a little more today. When I try to imagine what it's like for him, I just can't imagine it. I don't know how I would survive. So while I'm somewhat selfish in that I shouldn't be complaining when I have things so good, I am still sad and depressed and stressed-out for my brother.

If you, dear reader/s, believe in (a) god/s/goddess/es, please say a prayer for him on my behalf. I don't know what to do except to make that request.
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Old 08-13-2017, 01:51 AM
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Today's entry is short because it's time for dinner. Snowbunny is heating stuff up right now. She's kind of feeling crappy and not up to doing anything fancy for dinner. After dinner we'll watch an episode of Orange Is the New Black. I figure everyone will turn in early. Snowbunny has to get up early for some work stuff, even though she's off (today and) tomorrow. The credit union where she works is installing some new software to enable banking on the weekends.

That's all I have for now.
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Old 08-13-2017, 02:43 AM
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I am so sorry about your brother.
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Old 08-13-2017, 05:04 PM
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Thanks PPG. I know there's nothing I can do about it, so I try not to obsess about it. But I am haunted by it.
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I also feel for your brother, and you too, as you're clearly anxious about his welfare.

My current partner, J, has spent a total of 15 years in prison over a 30 year period and while it wasn't easy, he came out of those experiences relatively unscathed. I hope and pray your brother will fare similarly.
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He is suffering under a broken system. Up until now he has been able to be a source of good for other people, I think that has helped him get through it. But now he is in a place where it will be hard for him to find any silver lining. I worry about him. I am anxious for fall weather to arrive as the building he is in is at the mercy of the elements.
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It's 78 right now; most of the upcoming week will be in the upper 70's. Today (Tuesday the 15th) is Brother-Husband's last day off this week, I'm not sure but he and I might end up watching something on TV. He's watching some previews out there, while I do my computer stuff.
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Today sucks. I can't find the words. I can't bear to get into any details. Suffice to say I'm feeling humiliated and very angry. Sympathy appreciated if you have some to spare.
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