I mean there is no “normal” - it’s a thing some people feel early in the poly journey, some don’t, some get over it, some don’t. Some people enjoy the contrast of experiencing both at once (look up the hotwife community - that type of voyeurism is very foreign to me but one of my partners finds it hot. Takes all sorts...)
And I’m ADD too, I get the thought spirals and the rejection sensitivity. In many ways I’m very lucky that my first experience with actual polyamorous relating (not just swinging), I was swept up in new relationship energy enough with someone else that it made processing what jealousy I had over Knight’s relationship with his new partner MUCH easier.
And I’m ADD too, I get the thought spirals and the rejection sensitivity. In many ways I’m very lucky that my first experience with actual polyamorous relating (not just swinging), I was swept up in new relationship energy enough with someone else that it made processing what jealousy I had over Knight’s relationship with his new partner MUCH easier.