Education
Started my English 111 class today. Going to be 10 weeks of busy-ness. 15 assignments due by this Saturday. I've knocked out 2 of them already. Hopefully be able to work through a few more this evening after Maca is off work and take the kids for a bit!
We had a great weekend. I got to spend some much needed time cuddling with GG and just catching up with each other. That was nice.
I had sent an email to GG, Maca and my oldest daughter about motherhood. GG replied to it. He obviously took some time to really put his thoughts together. His reply was about me as a mother-in his eyes. It was VERY touching. I shared it with Maca. I really do appreciate hearing what I do right, cause sometimes it's hard for me to see.
Maca and I had a couple more LITTLE talks that were on serious topics for us. We managed to circumvent any arguments by using our agreed upon "pauses". I felt really bad over the one I caused. I interrupted him... he managed to "pause" and I immediately felt bad and apologized. I KNOW it's so disrespectful to interrupt when someone's trying to share with you. (slap forehead). But, we got past it and moved on productively.
Maca and I got some much needed "down time" and he helped me with some issues I was having with my math. He was fairly amused when I started laughing at a movie he had on. It was a stupid movie and I'm generally not one to find "stupid humor" funny in the least. I don't even know what he was watching-but the scene that cracked me up, this guy was getting aggravated by the bird pecking on his window, keeping him awake. After all these tries to make it stop so he could sleep, he rolls over screaming SHUT UP-and scares his sleeping wife. She falls on the floor. I laughed so hard! Maca just stared at me with an eyebrow raised at first. He was so astonished I was laughing. It was a funny, relaxing moment for both of us.
We discussed some D/s things. We've put our D/s on hold to a great degree, due to needing to resolve our relationship issues (obviously). But, there are aspects that are very natural for both of us and have continued because of that. We talked about that some and I was pleasantly surprised to find that we had a similar "take" on things that I thought we would not.
I also "came out" to a friend. He and I were very close friends in our teens. Then he married and his wife was extra-ordinarily possessive. I backed out of contact as she hated me for existing. They're divorcing (been in the works and living apart for over a year now). He reached out to me through my mom (who he kept in touch with). We've been slowly reconnecting over the last 3-4 months.
I was very happy that while he's NOT into non-monogamous relationships, he was very accepting of it being a fact of my life AND not tempted into the annoying "so, what about us" line of reasoning. I really loathe telling someone I'm poly and then having them assume that means they have a chance. It was nice to be able to open up and have a serious discussion and NOT have that occur-but also have the opening up create a more comfortable platform of honesty for us to build a friendship on.
All in all-a decently good week. I've had a lot of emotional struggles (internally); but everyone has been very patient and understanding and supportive as I work through them.
Making slow progress!