breathemusic
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So we talked things out some more. I told him that if he and Elle had any sort of discussion about all of this (mainly if she brought up noticing me being upset) I wanted him to make sure she knew that my issue wasn't with her, but also that I didn't want him to say how upset I was since that would probably only make her feel like crap when I didn't blame her. We reiterated with each other that we both at least enjoyed all of the rest of our Saturday and that the group stuff with Elle was fun and I enjoyed us all spending time together. That I even enjoyed the group snuggles on the couch, etc. We talked about the rest of the week and scheduling and all that. I reminded him that I have drinks with OKC guy (the Doctor, though not sure if I previously mentioned that he was and I don't think I've named him yet) on Wed and that I have a date night with Mr. Hyde on Thurs. Of course, Sudo struggles with his own insecurities and worries when it comes to me dating. So he said that he's going to try and make plans with either Peach or Elle on Thurs so that he's distracted and won't think/worry so much while I'm with Mr. Hyde. Weird to have a conversation like that when he literally just fucked his g/f within earshot of me the night before, but whatever, he knows that his feelings are largely just those irrational fears that he needs to work through himself. Which I told him that I appreciated the way he manages his feelings, but that I do want to know when he's upset and will do my best to comfort him when I'm able, etc.
So yeah, overall we talked everything through and got back to a good place, and had lots of nice words of comfort and affirmation and love and all that. But even today I'm still just struggling to get the sucky emotions to go away. I'm feeling better, but not back to normal.
I was supposed to hang out with a friend tonight, but I've already cancelled since I just need more sleep and am still a bit emotionally drained. I need a night to myself to just veg and not feel like I have to be "on."
On the upside, I think in the 1.5 years we've been together this is really the first time he's made me *really* upset from something he's done. No relationship is perfect, and we worked through it without yelling or fighting. So I guess that's a plus?
So we talked things out some more. I told him that if he and Elle had any sort of discussion about all of this (mainly if she brought up noticing me being upset) I wanted him to make sure she knew that my issue wasn't with her, but also that I didn't want him to say how upset I was since that would probably only make her feel like crap when I didn't blame her. We reiterated with each other that we both at least enjoyed all of the rest of our Saturday and that the group stuff with Elle was fun and I enjoyed us all spending time together. That I even enjoyed the group snuggles on the couch, etc. We talked about the rest of the week and scheduling and all that. I reminded him that I have drinks with OKC guy (the Doctor, though not sure if I previously mentioned that he was and I don't think I've named him yet) on Wed and that I have a date night with Mr. Hyde on Thurs. Of course, Sudo struggles with his own insecurities and worries when it comes to me dating. So he said that he's going to try and make plans with either Peach or Elle on Thurs so that he's distracted and won't think/worry so much while I'm with Mr. Hyde. Weird to have a conversation like that when he literally just fucked his g/f within earshot of me the night before, but whatever, he knows that his feelings are largely just those irrational fears that he needs to work through himself. Which I told him that I appreciated the way he manages his feelings, but that I do want to know when he's upset and will do my best to comfort him when I'm able, etc.
So yeah, overall we talked everything through and got back to a good place, and had lots of nice words of comfort and affirmation and love and all that. But even today I'm still just struggling to get the sucky emotions to go away. I'm feeling better, but not back to normal.
I was supposed to hang out with a friend tonight, but I've already cancelled since I just need more sleep and am still a bit emotionally drained. I need a night to myself to just veg and not feel like I have to be "on."
On the upside, I think in the 1.5 years we've been together this is really the first time he's made me *really* upset from something he's done. No relationship is perfect, and we worked through it without yelling or fighting. So I guess that's a plus?