Greetings to all! I’ve voraciously been reading the forums for a couple months now, and thought I’d try to jump into the fray so to speak. Lol. I’m not sure how much I fit in, or how my situation fits in, but thought I’d try it out. *All names are not actual names*
My husband Nick and I are both hetero, CIS and been married for 16 years, together 18 years. We met and fell in love as late teens. Our first child was born 18mo into our relationship and we married soon after. In total we now have 4 children all school age. Nick spent time in the armed forces, deploying many times. I did the SAHM thing for over a decade. Three of our children have diagnosed disabilities. He now works a civilian job 6 nights/wk and I’m in college while still taking care of kids.
We were monogamous up until around 2 1/2 years ago. Each other’s firsts and onlys. We’d had issues in our marriage for years, sexual and emotional, and ashamedly I did end up having an emotional affair off and on with a mutual friend Matt. But things still went south with Nick, and I eventually gave up and asked for a divorce. We dated others during the separation. 2 months into the separation he asked to reconcile. So we did. 6 months after that Nick decided he wanted to leave, as he felt he’d had enough of my sexual difficulties, as well as saying (which he now realizes was immature thinking) he wanted a hotter and kinkier woman to be with. As much as that hurt and really hit my insecurities where they live and the bunker below that, I really couldn’t blame him. But he didn’t want to break up our family, and said he truly loved me just wasn’t sexually attracted to me anymore. So we ended up deciding maybe poly was the answer. (I know now, don’t add people to fix inside problems, but we’re now here and doing our best )
I found Doug within a few weeks, and we dated on and off for a year. Nick didn’t find Ashley for a year, but due to the nature of how their relationship began it only lasted 6 weeks (and huge drama to boot that included Matt).
All outside relationships ended 9 months ago. The emotional affair with Matt ended 18mo ago after he told Nick about it, but we all worked through it and on ok terms. I’ve not been at all interested in new people (drama from Ashley and Nick’s relationship, guilt from my relationship with Matt, and my insecurities running wild). Nick says he still wants to keep the door open, but isn’t actively pursuing things. Ashley threw him for a loop. He does see himself finding someone in the future tho.
So that’s me and my short poly journey. Our marriage feels good right now, grown and matured in this window of time, but I keep reading to try to prepare myself for anything that comes along in the future. I don’t know if poly is right for me, but still trying to find out. Divorce is not currently in the cards, more like coming to understanding. I’ve thought about starting a blog, but being that things aren’t currently actively happening in the poly side of things, I’m not sure if that would be ok.
My husband Nick and I are both hetero, CIS and been married for 16 years, together 18 years. We met and fell in love as late teens. Our first child was born 18mo into our relationship and we married soon after. In total we now have 4 children all school age. Nick spent time in the armed forces, deploying many times. I did the SAHM thing for over a decade. Three of our children have diagnosed disabilities. He now works a civilian job 6 nights/wk and I’m in college while still taking care of kids.
We were monogamous up until around 2 1/2 years ago. Each other’s firsts and onlys. We’d had issues in our marriage for years, sexual and emotional, and ashamedly I did end up having an emotional affair off and on with a mutual friend Matt. But things still went south with Nick, and I eventually gave up and asked for a divorce. We dated others during the separation. 2 months into the separation he asked to reconcile. So we did. 6 months after that Nick decided he wanted to leave, as he felt he’d had enough of my sexual difficulties, as well as saying (which he now realizes was immature thinking) he wanted a hotter and kinkier woman to be with. As much as that hurt and really hit my insecurities where they live and the bunker below that, I really couldn’t blame him. But he didn’t want to break up our family, and said he truly loved me just wasn’t sexually attracted to me anymore. So we ended up deciding maybe poly was the answer. (I know now, don’t add people to fix inside problems, but we’re now here and doing our best )
I found Doug within a few weeks, and we dated on and off for a year. Nick didn’t find Ashley for a year, but due to the nature of how their relationship began it only lasted 6 weeks (and huge drama to boot that included Matt).
All outside relationships ended 9 months ago. The emotional affair with Matt ended 18mo ago after he told Nick about it, but we all worked through it and on ok terms. I’ve not been at all interested in new people (drama from Ashley and Nick’s relationship, guilt from my relationship with Matt, and my insecurities running wild). Nick says he still wants to keep the door open, but isn’t actively pursuing things. Ashley threw him for a loop. He does see himself finding someone in the future tho.
So that’s me and my short poly journey. Our marriage feels good right now, grown and matured in this window of time, but I keep reading to try to prepare myself for anything that comes along in the future. I don’t know if poly is right for me, but still trying to find out. Divorce is not currently in the cards, more like coming to understanding. I’ve thought about starting a blog, but being that things aren’t currently actively happening in the poly side of things, I’m not sure if that would be ok.