"You can safely assume you've created God in your own image when it turns out that God hates all the same people you do." — Anne Lamott
Interesting thoughts. I think we all do this with several matters in our life. We tend to create our surroundings in our own outlook instead of looking into the reality of the situation. My realizations of the last few days play into it. Situations may have turned out in a different way had I not been so caught up in viewing things in my way instead of the way the were.
I don't think I was fully in the wrong. Karma had an affair , several, and they hurt. It sliced me to the core to be betrayed in such a way. To know that years of my life were built on lies. And coming off that emotional mess, was all the drama with g/f and her ex/now back to being b/f, and Karmas friend. I didn't know what the hell to think. But I started believing that she was just playing games with all involved.
Funny how the world works and the lessons we have to learn.
Like, Karma master of blades, cannot be trusted to open a package with my knife. He stabbed himself in the palm, under the thumb. Probably needed stitches, but I steri stripped it and covered it and used all the techniques my Army field nurse / nursing instructor mother taught me, along with my years of working with children in the wilderness and all my wound care and first aid certifications. I called her to make sure I covered all the bases-feeling, color return, mobility, amount of blood. He's fine other than pain, and it saved us a hefty hospital bill since we don't have insurance.
But it's funny that the stuff I used to watch my mom do as an inquisitive kid has come in handy multiple times with my athletic, martial artist, must play with sharp pointies, husband. I love him, but he's a clutz, and I never thought I'd need those skills for my husband, but I have several times.
Odd little things in life.
On another note, Karma just called g/f to tell her about it and she said he couldn't fight until she looked at it. I started to get kinda pissy. Ummm I know what I'm doing! I already told him no fighting while there's a chance it can rip back open. I get that she's worked animal rescue, I get that she's well aware of wounds and healing and all that. But I felt like she was underminding me. I have yrs of experience and certifications in wound care, first aid etc etc. I'm not going to put my husband in danger or let him go off and do something that'll injure himself further.
I know she was doing it out of concern in the same way I did. I know she didn't say it to slight me in anyway, she didn't want him doing something stupid. But I can't help but feel like she didn't trust that I had already covered that base.
Oh well, I'll get over it, am just frustrated by it, and not used to someone coming into my territory. And caring for my husband is my territory. I'm not used to sharing that. I guess that's why our friends call me the Alpha Bitch.
I'm going to go back to enjoying my night with my husband. We're watching Enter the Dragon. I've never seen it so I guess I should pay attention.
Hope everyone enjoys their weekend!