FurryPixie
New member
I'm very new to polyamory and I'm now facing a major issue: my boyfriend has a first date with someone else this week and I'm feeling very, very insecure. He told me while we were chatting and my initial reaction was almost throwing up...
The good part is that instead of just letting myself getting caught in a downward spiral of negative emotions, I started really thinking about it and that has helped tremendously. I was able to identify my feelings and I'm not jealous, I'm just very scared of losing him because of my very low self esteem(even though I know intellectually that I don't suck, I still feel deep down like everyone else is by default better than me...) and my insecurity issues.
Also, our relationship is very, very new and it usually takes me a long time before I feel comfortable discussing my feelings in depth with someone. I'm not there yet with him, so it's hard for me... And it's all going so fast, I have to admit that I don't understand why he wants another new relationship so soon. We're still deep into NRE and I don't want that to stop just because someone else comes into the picture...
So I've identified my feelings and know where they come from. Now I'm stuck. I guess I'm hoping for an outside point of view... Thanks for being there
The good part is that instead of just letting myself getting caught in a downward spiral of negative emotions, I started really thinking about it and that has helped tremendously. I was able to identify my feelings and I'm not jealous, I'm just very scared of losing him because of my very low self esteem(even though I know intellectually that I don't suck, I still feel deep down like everyone else is by default better than me...) and my insecurity issues.
Also, our relationship is very, very new and it usually takes me a long time before I feel comfortable discussing my feelings in depth with someone. I'm not there yet with him, so it's hard for me... And it's all going so fast, I have to admit that I don't understand why he wants another new relationship so soon. We're still deep into NRE and I don't want that to stop just because someone else comes into the picture...
So I've identified my feelings and know where they come from. Now I'm stuck. I guess I'm hoping for an outside point of view... Thanks for being there