I'm in total worker bee mode. I've got a tonne of stuff: work related, financial, moving related and family related, swirling around in my head. I don't get overwhelmed, but instead tend to pick one thing out and completely focus until it's done. Unfortunately, it can seem that I am withdrawn when I kick into gear. Redpepper has been noticing my preoccupation and hasn't felt connected at times. That is a worry I have. I know she wants to do a lot of things and needs to have things to look forward to on the schedule. I'm just not very good at multitasking in that way, I must admit. When I get a task I am excited by, I am driven. I am very excited at redoing the suite, to give it a fresh start, so I am constantly thinking about what is next before I move in and on getting her room ready for her. I want it to be nice and fresh for her. Things like my birthday or Thanksgiving start to get in my way. because I could be painting or something. This is nothing new for me, but it isn't something I particularly like about myself. I am counting on Redpepper to keep me present, while I work towards being even more present in her life.
I'm already thinking about that doorway between floors, so it is easier for her to move throughout the house. I can get really obsessed with home renovations, so I need to pace myself. Damn, I am really enjoying working with my hands again!
My secondary goal is to get settled, so we can start the next chapter of our lives. I'm having a problem being in their space so much as I work on the suite. I feel like I am invading Polynerdist's time with her already, and I don't want him to think that it will get worse when I move in LOL.
My main goal is to keep giving Redpepper all the love I have and make her feel spoiled rotten.
Stole this from another thread. I didn't want to lose it, as it will be a reminder of where we have been one day.
I love that you are excited, Mono. I think that it will be great to see you working with your hands again, and I am not worried that you will get lost in it. I think you need to, right now. I think it's great that you want to get involved and have something to sink your teeth into, that you can be proud of.
What would worry me is if you were to get lost in fixing things for a long time. This is why I think you lost connection with your wife and child and why that loss of connection led you down a path that was not healthy for you, in terms of having an affair. I reserve the right to pull you back from your absorption from time to time in order for us to remaining connected. I hope that is okay. You asked me to keep you present, after all'
Thanksgiving will be busy and overwhelming. I'm looking forward to having an excuse this year, in that we have things to do in the suite. I have to be careful though, as PN really has nothing to do with it and is not involved at all, other than it's partly his money. I would be down there painting and helping out just as much as Mono, but I can't be, in order to keep a balance.
PN has organized a babysitter for Saturday night so that he and I can go and do something. I have to respect that it is important that I go, even if I would rather be listening to the radio and painting in my old track pants and a t-shirt, or putting together some of the things I got for the bedroom that I am now very excited about!
I haven't decided what colours I want, but I keep going towards purple. I have never liked purple. What is wrong with me!? I always thought it reminded me of bruises. Now I want brown and earthy colours, with purple accents all over the place! I imagine a rich brown-sheeted bed, with purple blankets and throw pillows, for some reason.
Still no bed. I would like a moon chair, a big-ass one that feels like I could get lost in it. I don't know where to get one though. I will find it, no problem. That is the stuff I'm good at. Finding things. I spend all day with my clients looking around the city and having coffee. That is what we enjoy most, just us girls. We have a mission now! I never pay much for anything either. There is nothing I like more than free or cheap.
Today, Mono brought us home a free three-year old fridge! It was so satisfying to get that old one out of here. He and I are much alike in some ways. When something comes along, we act! We had that thing in place and full by the time PN came home!
He doesn't know what hits him when we get on a task. It made waiting for the go-ahead hard sometimes, I think. I wonder how that dynamic will play out in the future. PN takes his time, does things well and properly. Mono and I get it done quick and dirty, depending on what it is, of course. We can go for hours on other tasks.