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Old 08-09-2011, 06:52 AM
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I just love reading your blog. You convey the richness of your life in your writing.
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Old 08-11-2011, 04:16 PM
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I just love reading your blog. You convey the richness of your life in your writing.
What a great complement. Thank you very much.
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Old 08-11-2011, 04:19 PM
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Default 2 night and 1.25 days with lover

We went over to Lovers for load of water, and to drop me off at his place for a night of cuddling. The next morning I had a few errands to run. When we finally finished feeding his rabbits, and chasing the goats out of the fence they broke into we managed to get ready to go. Before we took off I called to see how it was going on her end. Woogie was teething badly. I told him Tylenol, frozen blueberries, and lots of cuddling. The Dew on the other hand was being great. The heat was bearing down on us when we finally left. The stores were cool. He took me out to lunch. I actually got an hour nap when I got home. I can't remember the last time I had a nap.

I started dinner for everyone. Peeled and had potatoes on for a kids delicacy: mashed potatoes. Gave Jewell a call as time was slipping by fast now. Jewell on the phone sounded tiered as hell. In the background were two very happy laughing kids. She didn't want to disrupt their cute little game. So we decided it would be best for me to spend another night. I was simi excited, but also very home sick to the point of Lover offering me a ride home. I almost said yes, but it was late, and I am sure by the time I arrived home everyone would be asleep.

We ate, and enjoyed a ball game on the radio. He kissed me with the joy and excitement of having me another night. I spooned Lover, and slept like a log myself. I heard the radio click on. Morning news filled the air like the smell of his morning cigarette. I wanted him bad once more before having to get out of bed. It wasn't had to lure him back in.

We got Jewell to come over for breakfast. Potato cakes, from the left over mashed tators, and a frittata. The frittata has become Lovers and I favorite morning breakfast food. I did the cooking as Jewell and Lover hung outside doing chores and talking.

From Jewell later on; She got Lover to almost admit how much he would miss me when I left. He was more honest then ever with his love for me. I am sure that there is more to their convo, but I am not too noisy.

At breakfast he sat closer to me, and let me drape my arm around him. As we were leaving he waited just until they were out of sight before planting a huge kiss on me, and squeezing me. I trailed his face before saying goodbye.

Now Jewell and I have fully adjusted to the shifts of me leaving. I do what I do when I leave and come back; be it town, mom, or Lover. I jump in the shower for a few moments. I did it when I was working as well. It is my way of getting 5min to reflect and shift energy. Jewell and I were strikingly on the same page about everything. We discussed the goats we are going to put up for sale, our building, the kids, the finances. Communication seemed to flow beautifully between us.
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Old 08-11-2011, 04:26 PM
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Default Change beatiful Change

Change is coming. I can feel it in the soft summer morning air. The spider I see as my totem and a symbol of change has been popping up scaring the daylights out of me. I cut my hair short. My mom is moving out. Lover is showing more of his deep love for me, exposing himself, for all to see. The blueprints of our cabin are complete. Jewell and I have figured the goats to sale. There are kittens and rabbits ready to sale as well. The garden harvest is coming in. My fall grant is on its way.

Change is coming. Slowly it is starting but I know it will snowball. It will be a few months of chaos. Building, and gathering wood for the winter rest. Me getting back into my school work and getting The Dew more deeply into hers. Fixing the goat barn. Batting down the farm, and making sure the vehicles are in great working order. Getting our years worth of hay here, and stored.

Also helping Lover with his winter preparations. There is no way he can load and unload all of his hay alone. He is also rebuilding his goat barn as well. We have Lamancha goats and their small ears make wind hard for them to handle. Winter for everyone here is hard.

This is a homesteading fall. Do it right, or you could be in serous trouble. Mother nature shows little mercy past November.
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Old 08-13-2011, 02:12 PM
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Sharing is usually caring. Not so much in this case. I think Lover gave me a cold. Just a slight one. The only thing that really irks me is the fact that I am so use to have a super immune system. This last year I have caught everything imaginable. Is my body not recuperated from the baby? Could it still be weak getting use to the high altitude? I don't know. I eat so healthy. Anyway enough ranting.

Today is a town day. Lover and I get to pick up The Dew who has spent a couple of nights there. It means no sexy time for us, yet a yummy dinner. Mom is leaving in just days. Jewell and I went to see them a few days earlier to help pack. Talk about two girls on their periods together. We picked at each other all day. It wasn't yelling or hurtful. We did buy us some ice cream.

Lovers new nickname that we have been calling him for days now, between Jewell and I, is The Man of The House. Its hilarious because it fits so well. Us four girls and one man how does he survive?
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Old 08-16-2011, 05:00 PM
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Dry humping Jewell in my sleep most of the morning ,I think, led her to coming up with an excuse for me seeing Lover. I did call first giving him fair warning that I was coming over alone. Being as hot as it was he was already naked and laying in bed. Sex in the heat of the day was messier than ever. Warm bodied dripping with sweat. Nothing a cool shower didn't help. It was relaxing none the less.

Jewell, when I came home was with our newly found neighbors. A couple who had been together now 18 years. Old and weathered, yet still full of the feistiness I see in newborn kid goats. They have Oklahoma accidents that could rock you to sleep. The female I will call C is amazing. She likes my company, and talks my ear off. She has still a great touch with kids even though hers are all grown. J is the male counterpart and loves Jewells company. I think C is figuring out Jewell not being so uhm, manly.

We have been helping them set up their solar. He has been coming around with his tractor fixing our roads. We have almost meshed together already. Its amazing what you give and get with love. Lover is the same. A couple other neighbors all the same. We open our hearts and give and what we can, no matter how little we have. We give and though we donít expect it, it still reciprocates and grows. It seems to be our karma. It is how we make it in the world. We spent years helping S fix up his property. Now we can go there when ever we want, or we can go to his land in Hawaii. Our new neighbor J is going to help us drill a well. Talk about being blessed. What a good karma we have.

Another odd karma we seem to carry is finding boyfriends to take care of us. Lover is the first one I have gotten sexual with. S had taken great care of us. Jewell has a whole slew of boyfriends, mainly just emotional, that he reciprocates love with. We are still calling Lover Man of the House. In a way he feels he must make up for the overly feminine household we have up here. It just makes us giggle.

Jewell last night had a good giggle over me. I know she has me figured out. Gee, why am I in the kitchen singing and making loads of good food? I do anyway, but why oh why was I in such a great mood? If I wasn't in my favorite too big tattered pink skirt, you might have been able to see me walk kinda funny.

Time to sign out. Woogie is going to strangle a kitten, and I need lunch.

(First time I spoke of S is in Wierdness on previous page)
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Old 08-21-2011, 11:22 PM
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The Man of the House got to spend the night with me and Woogie a few days ago. Long story short one bad event turned into an exhausted three of us, and a threating rain storm. With me and woogie at his place we decided it was best to stay. His first extended adventure with a toddler. We laid on the bed and let her maul us. He was pretty funny about us showing affection around her. We ended up in a quicky on the living room floor, after she dozed in bed.

She slept well as she usually does. Lover laughed as she snored loudly. I had a good giggle later in the night as she turned upside down and began kicking him in the face. He was very proud of himself surviving us. He brought up the one and only chance he had at a baby, as we drove to town, and due to many circumstances it was aborted. He glanced back at woogie and I could tell his mind was spinning. He wanted kids, the person never right. I feel good letting him help me raise ours. He has been around Woogie since she was three days old. He has been friends with us since I was 6 months pregnant. Now that I think about it we have been friends for over 2 years, and he has been my Lover for the last 8 months.

He has been calming me down quite a bit. I got an old alcoholic (friend?) on my land begging for money yesterday. I haven't heard word from mom in going on a week now. Her phone is disconnected. She could be anywhere, and she is with some one I don't know well. To throw me really hard I found out I wasn't getting my financial aid at all. No school for me this semester. No extra money to build. We have to ask for a loan from his parents who are not doing that well physically, to make it though this winter. Goats are headed to the auction this week. Wow, when change comes it sometimes hits hard. I know we are going to make it, we have to.
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Old 08-22-2011, 07:34 PM
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I need Lover. I ache for him. It feels like forever since I have spent one on one time with him, even though its been a week. I wanted to spend the night with him last night and was mildly hurt when he didn't give an answer, or seem receptive of my love . We went over for dinner and I really wanted to stay. Jewell was fine with it. Lover on the other hand just wasn't in the mood. I can’t blame him. He has been really busy lately. I have been going though some tough stuff and was needy for comfort.

Jewell was sweet knowing my disappointment, and my need. She dry humped me, and we spooned all night. She is the one that knows 100% of me. We have seen each other at our bests and at our worsts. Like I told her, "When I am with you I am home. I can burp, fart, and sing horrible opera. This is the place I am me to the core."

Never the less I still ache to feel lovers arms around me. I want a break from the kids. Woogie is so needy and demanding. I know one day she will grow out of my arms, but sometimes I just get tiered of her constantly crawling on me, getting in my way, crying, and just not giving me any personal space. Lover is pushing me to do a poetry book, and some children's books, but he doesn't have the constant demand. If he says no fun until something like that is done I will strangle him. I have bigger issues in my way right now. In winter great, perfect timing. Many people just don't understand this constant demand.
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Old 08-27-2011, 03:44 PM
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Lover grabbed Jewell or the other way around. Maybe both together. They slowly came together for a hug. Jewell grabbed me and pulled me in. I closed the circle wrapping my arm around Lover. We squeezed, and held each other. Energy flowing, breaths rising and falling, hearts beating together. No one wanted to let go. We held the moment as long as we could. My head resting .
on Lovers hand that was resting on Jewells shoulder. Muscles relaxed as we slowly let go. Even as our bodies parted we felt more connected with each other.
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You description of the hug is so beautiful!
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