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Old 06-24-2011, 09:03 PM
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Default Evrchanging's Blog About Loving Two

I love boys, I love girls, I love the in between as well. I am a female. I love to be a male energy in my family. Strong, and hardworking. I love to be the rock for my wife (55). I love to hold her tightly, and kiss her face. I enjoy pinching her newly grown teenage like breasts, and giving her sister talks about girly things. 8 years we have been together. Like the many layers, and colors of nail paint have I slathered on her times have been bright blue, neon orange, purple, red, and green. We have seen each other through the gloss and the chips.

We have two children. A seven year old, and a soon to be two year old. Not long after the second one was born Jewels sex drive plummeted, at the same time my sex drive skyrocketed. On top of sexual issues we hit money issues, and even got sucked up in a family drama (which I usually avoid, but it was a direct attack at tearing apart my family). We hit a hard bump. She hit hard medications, I nose dived into depression.

We have a deep friend of ours who has become intermeshed with the family. We both were working through it with him, as a third listening ear. He is a single man. He has actually held this family together. He loves us both, in different ways of course. He seen the fact that I was a raging horny 26 year old, with no personal space for even masturbation (We are temp. living in an R.V.). He seen that Jewel was depressed that she couldn't satisfy my insatiable desire. I will call him my Sex Toy (58).

I went to Jewel first who said it was okay to have sex with him. He had a vasectomy, and seemed to be okay.Then I went to him and told him I wasn't looking to run away from my responsibilities, or my wife, but I wanted to fuck, I needed it.

He was happy to oblige after he talked to Jewel. I remember how gingerly they approached each other, on Christmas 2010. Jewel, and Sex Toy both agreed that it would be okay, and it was okay with the both of them.

Two days later I spent my first night over there and was happy bow-legged all the next day. Things where going good. We hadn't worked through some deep issues in our marriage. We practiced me going over to his place once a week for a couple of months. In Feb, Jewel left with the kids for two weeks at grandmas to get over the pain meds, and deal with where our marriage was going.

She wanted me to stop seeing him. She was jealous and insecure. I agreed, and he agreed. We took a month break. This was mainly for Jewel but everyone benefited from it. Then one day out of the blue in May Jewel decided it was okay for me to be with Him.

Sex Toy and I have a great friendship she calls synergistic. We have known each other for a year. Both attracted to each other but never stepped outta bounds without Jewels okay first. We spend a lot of time together without sex. Just bonding, making stupid jokes, and helping each other out.

I think that now that we are 6th month together, Sex Toy has relaxed enough to call me his girlfriend, and so has Jewel. She comes up with crazy names that make him blush like fiancee was last nights, and sometimes wife if I get bossy or cranky with him.

I cool his loneliness, and depression. I give him a reason to cook again, revive his art. He loves to make me breakfast. Who can complain about that? He can be himself, and play with the kids. He loves to hang out with them and even babysit, as he has had no kids himself. Rayne my oldest asked him if we were having sex, (a 7 year old without a t.v.?) because of one of my pillows on his bed. At which point he choked on his coffee, then politely changed the subject.

Because of Sex Toy working with me and satisfying me to the point of no return many many times over, Jewel has completely relaxed into the female role. It is great to see her finally let go, and be. I painted her nails a gorgeous deep purple and she hasn't hid them from anyone for a change. Everyone that is considered our friend knows, and is okay with her. She is finally hitting the point of no return. She is just blossoming!

I honestly love both of them. Like my children, I do not love them equally. Each one brings something very special to me. Like being a mother, I can honestly give them each a full cup of love, understanding, and caring. Jewel has come to see the beauty in sharing my love, and realizing that he is not getting jipped in anyway.

There is a background. I have many questions and many things I just want to ramble about. Jewel is my first, Sex Toy is my second, so my experience level is low. I will post them as they come up.
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