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Old 10-03-2009, 02:46 AM
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Interesting concept, but not Buddhist I don't think. Good begets good, bad begets bad.

Ceoli you are so articulate some times. Your words make me drool... I wasn't going to say anything and you just said it better than I ever could!

B, I love your passion. Your willingness to put yourself out there is amazing..
Yeah well my passion is the thing i hate most about myself. It never gets me anywhere, just displeasure and sorrow. People say its my best quality, but how can my best quality make me so fucking miserable?
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Old 10-03-2009, 03:21 AM
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I was the same way. It gets better with time and age. It will make you awesome eventually. You are well on your way my friend. Patience with myself and listening to others is what did it for me. Especially listen when others say its your best quality. They are right. No one say that your best quality is what will make your life easy. Its your hardest work and the one that you are driven to do no matter what. Better to embrace it and be proud than to allow it to distroy you.

By the way, just an aside about condom use way back when... My 18 year old friend just found out his 17 year old girlfriend is pregnant with twins because they decided not to use condoms when she missed her pill.

Their whole life is in uproar and forever changed. Tough times ahead, all for an all natural fuck.
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Old 10-03-2009, 03:33 AM
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Berserker, I wasn't trying to insult you. But "the world OWES me" kinda strikes a nerve with me in a very fundamental way. The world doesn't owe you anything you're not willing to put time and positive energy into attaining. And, to do that, you have to let the anger go. It only leads to self destruction in the end. I have been through alot and alot was taken from me, but I have a choice. I can be a product of it and return negativity. I can sit back and rage and cry about it waiting on what the world owes me. Or I can learn, grow, move past it and go out and make a new and better life for myself. I choose the third option. I hope you do as well. That is what Karma means to me. You get what you put in, not get back what was taken.

Redpepper- You have an 18 year old? I thought you only had one child and he was young? Am I getting confused again? So...you'll have grandchildren now? How do you feel about that? I know. Stupid question. (Sorry to hijack.)
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oh dear
I didn't put "friend" in there and had to go back and change it.... no, he isn't mine. thank GOD!!!! I have thought about what I would do if my six year old got into that situation later in life, but he is still in the "look mumma, it hurts when I fold my penis back" stage.... ahhhhh, siiiiighhhh..... let that last a loooooong time!
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Yeah well my passion is the thing i hate most about myself.
I've lived a life with very little passion about anything my friend. Passion is good and makes living worth while. Embrace it!!
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Old 10-04-2009, 09:17 PM
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No need to call me berserker, call me nick or B like most do. I dont sit and wait for the world to just hand it to me, i actively seek my goals and put my all into it, however, the world owes me no obsticals to hinder my happiness and nothing to prevent my life from turning out the way i want. I had that throughout my younger years. I didnt get to be a child so it sucks having to take responsibility for everything. Also, i already have a daughter, she isnt biological to either of us, however i love her no less than id love my own biological daughter or son. Shes the spawn of Haleys family friend and said friend is EXACTLY how my mother was. Ill be damned if ill let my little girl grow up having to pick her mother up from acid trips and hide her mothers heroin needles. If Haley was pregnant it wouldent phase me, i can take care of 2 little girls just fine.

I dont mean to be vain but im not THAT dumb, i do have uses, im pretty handy with a computer and after highschool im making my business take off. Firestorm Computer Company, remember that name ^_^ one day youll be sending your computers to me to get fixed.
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