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Old 02-08-2011, 08:50 PM
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Old 02-10-2011, 12:45 PM
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Default Aloneness

"Aloneness is a state of being, whereas loneliness is a state of feeling. It's like the difference between being broke and being poor." - Townes Van Zandt


I am always wary of pontification, narcissism, and arrogance. Sometimes it happens anyway, no matter how much humble pie I eat for dinner.

And I love pie.

There are times when I am reminded of an observation made by a very calm and stoic mentor from my youth. He said this:

"You have to be just arrogant enough to know that you are good, and good enough to be a little arrogant."

Know what you're good at. Own what you are not. And then, get to work.

I am good at being alone. Always have been. Emotional and physical self-sufficiency was instilled in me by both Nature and Nurture, and later, by Empathy and Experience. Likewise, I was born with and encouraged to pursue artistic passions, wandering through my mind, looking for ideas to manifest and emotions to outlet. By and large, this has been a blessing in my life, enabling me to make something out of nothing, to do with what I have, and learn how to fit my own skin.

The down side to being a loner is that, while it has kept me from developing co-dependent relationships, it has also provided me a place, physically and emotionally, to exist isolated from those who would have me be closer. It has always been a struggle for me to balance the inter-personal with the inner person.

What I am trying to say is this:

I am not good at trimming the sails on deck when the ship gets to rocking. Oh, I'm still on board, but you're likely to find me below-deck, carving a new teak figurehead for the bowsprit, or knotting a hammock for a shipmate.

Okay then, enough is enough, I'm putting down my tinkering and coming up topside to see what real work needs doing...

Anchors away.
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Old 02-10-2011, 03:17 PM
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Old 02-10-2011, 03:51 PM
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Holy Petunias! No wonder RC and CF love Charlie! What a fine, polished, (pollished? ...) and rustic jewel! I'll have to love him too, then. At some distance. But up close.

This forum has some of the most amazing, glorious human beings in it. It make me proud to be human, overjoyed with hope in us. Thank you and a deep bow.
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Old 02-10-2011, 04:17 PM
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Jealousy. Show me one single relationship, family, friend, or otherwise, that does not have it and I will show you the meaning of the word "apathy".
You're a brilliant man, but what you just said here just ain't so. Sorry. None of us sees the whole puzzle, layed out in pieces.

Jealousy is more like a good piece of firewood. It burns and burns and burns until there's nothing left of it but ashes and soot. It makes smoke while doing this, and pops and crackles. If it's burning real hot it can burn fast and ... a phoenix stretches its wings and ... well, it flies!

The burning need only hurt a moment if'n we're willing.
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Old 02-11-2011, 09:17 PM
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I once stood on the edge of the Badlands naked, a thousand miles from home, in the early Sun of a South Dakota morning. A great friend stood next to me, naked, and we feasted on the lunar landscape before us, as the mosquitoes feasted on our banquet of flesh.

In four thousand miles of that adventure, I took not a single picture. My great friend is no longer such a friend, him being lost to me down a different path. Such is the way of many friendships. It is a hard lesson learned.

That great traveling West was my first in that direction, and the vastness of this country was staggering. In the years that have followed, I have fearlessly traveled hundreds of thousands of miles in the width and breadth of this country, always with hope.

Each time I have set out on the road, I have purged my belongings of excess. In the beginning, it was for the practical considerations of limitations in volume, mass, and money. But alas, form follows function. The lack of possessions soon became spiritually unbinding.

The less I had to manage, the more peace I found. Anything that was not adaptable to multiple uses was left, pawned, or passed on. As I let go of objects, I gained space. As I let go of people, I gained freedom. As I let go of control, I saw open spaces instead of fences.

To a fault, I have at times sacrificed conventional comforts for the sake of mobility and independence. I have relied on reciprocal generosity from time to time for room and board. More often than not, I have paid my way by working hard for my living. The world owes me nothing.

I live within a culture that encourages identity based on possessions and ownership, things that can be stolen, lost, or broken. I live in a culture of excess. I am as much a consumer as the next person and far from being carbon neutral, but I do not collect, and I do not covet.

I am flawed, certainly, but I can stand before the World, naked and unflinching, with the knowledge that all that I can lay honest claim to exists in the nothingness of my mind. What my two hands are able to create out of that nothingness amazes me still and their feats of Creation are a blessing.

That I know nothing of envy or jealousy is a direct result of proactively denying possession, of things, ideas, or love. I believe in stewardship, not ownership, and I do my best as a caretaker. That I have broken things that were in my care is also true, and in those failures I have learned to hold things more lightly.

Do not be fooled by these scars and calloused hands: I am rough only because the World has required it.

I hold this feather gently for you.

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Old 02-12-2011, 05:31 PM
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I believe in stewardship, not ownership ....
Brother!

May this idea touch and bless the whole world!
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Old 02-12-2011, 10:57 PM
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That I know nothing of envy or jealousy is a direct result of proactively denying possession, of things, ideas, or love. I believe in stewardship, not ownership, and I do my best as a caretaker. That I have broken things that were in my care is also true, and in those failures I have learned to hold things more lightly.
Ahh! There it is.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.
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Old 02-13-2011, 11:07 PM
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My face hurts from smiling so much last night and my ribs hurt from laughing so hard the night before.

A little "hair of the dog", if you will.

Thinking about it over weak coffee this morning, I'm pretty sure the moonshine got passed around last night for the sole purpose of dulling the pain of the laughter.

I am glad for the quart jar of moonshine. I would be in much worse shape today for lack of it.

That my buddy's mom had the foresight to bring such medicinal spirits with her was a blessing.

Moms are good like that.
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Old 02-13-2011, 11:25 PM
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There's a line in a movie that goes... "I'll have what she's having". And the above evokes it. And yet... We seem to be imbibing the same Spirit. Already! May all become so intoxicated!
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