Originally Posted by MonoVCPHG
I must admit I don't like re-visiting this post but here I am. I feel something a little different this time though...something I didn't expect to feel with any intensity ever again. Loss. Not the loss of anything given to me..but in my ability to give of myself. I'm working through it, there is a tremendous conflict in me but as always I trust in the words of the people I love. Doing what is right is listening to those I trust more than anything.
This is not easy. I don't think it ever will be. Things have changed, we are looking inward as well as outward. We always support each other.
I hope this change isn't permanent, but if so, then that is how it has to be... I am slowed to a stop my love. Take your time. I am in no rush to ever figure this out... you and our family is worth much more than anything else in my life right now. If that changes then so be it, but for now.... full stop.
(I know, I know, I'm a fool, but if you all were to witness what we all have, then you would think I am a fool for entirely different reasons, its worth sucking it up).