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[Ohiogrl]

eeeek!

Ok I have a pretty dominating personality when it comes to finding new people for my BF. Out of concern of course, as I have mentioned in my other post.

ButI am gonna skip talking about him for a minute, because I just realized something. I am all good with poly and all, I like I want it, etc.... but I'm talking to an old friend right now who I have been intimate with before and she and her new hubby want me to come visit. "like that".

It just occurred to me how shy I am when it comes to others propositioning me.
Like VERY. Turn bright red, stumble over my words, dont know what to say, kinda shy.

And since I am moving away, and haven't dated on my own in YEARS, This is something I need to get over. I am not even sure how it happened. I USED to have balls of freaking steel! Where did they go? How did this happen?!?!?!?

More importantly, what am I going to do about it?

I am not happy to discover this fact about myself.