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Old 12-14-2010, 08:21 PM
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Did I mention how much I love Mono. He made my room so nice for me and Leo last night. He helped me set up the computer to play an on line movie, he let me put beer in the fridge and let me use his glasses... he made sure to give us space so that we could enjoy our time together... all this from a man that does not share his space with anyone... I felt so loved and grateful. I felt so loved by all three men last night as PN did what was needed to make sure I had time with Leo and Leo was just wonderful to me... he listened to me, laughed with me and we had a really good time together... Feel so loved and complete today.
I just wrote this on another thread but wanted to post here too.

We had our first time ever bedroom visit, Leo and I, last night. Derby has been for a visit, but only briefly and when I was sick. It was an interesting night and lead up for me. I felt really unsure of how it would go, yet pushed ahead to see. Mono was amazing and so giving. I so appreciated that he was able to let me be in my space with who I wanted to be in it with... something that was hard for him, I'm sure.

I feel a little unsteady today as I gave him too much info about my night and should of known better. I felt so loved this morning and forgot that that doesn't mean that I get to tell the world about it... Mono and I had to de-brief as a result. It seem to be all good now...

I hope that I can have Leo over again, but not for a long time... there needs to be some time. We have been used to sitting in restaurants, in his car and going for walks. This kind of privacy is not something that we are used to. It needs to be worked out what it means and how we can "be" in private space... its hard to explain some how... and I don't think I am doing it justice so I will leave it there and we shall see what unfolds.
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Old 12-14-2010, 09:45 PM
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something that was hard for him, I'm sure. .
I did push myself a little and was really happy to give you that gift when I woke up this morning. I had uncomfortable thoughts when lying in my bed only feet away from your room. I could hear you gigling and was thinking about you snuggling and flirting with your mutual sexual attraction on your bed with Leo. I couldn't sleep and was glad when the night came to an end. But I was really happy in the morning because I did it and I knew you had fun....and then the "To Much Information" email came in.


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I feel a little unsteady today as I gave him too much info about my night and should of known better..
It kind of confirmed those uncomfortable thoughts and took away from the healthiness of the experience for me. And of course my reaction probably took away from your happiness. We'll have to work on some tricks to bypass my brain I think. There is a grey area between completley cool and uncrossable lines that I just don't need to hear about or see. Just that little bit of info, (which really contained nothing new except reinfiorcing my thoughts), was enough to set me back.
I'm not a fan of DADT for the big things, but this isn't that big and so sweet sweet ignorance is perfectly fine for me. Some people will call me out for not being able to deal..that's fine, I agree and never claimed to be able to handle the idea of RP with another guy. But in my mind, a little DADT is better than hurting my connection with the woman I love. Some people will also say, well why can't that apply to a full physical relationship...good point. I guess in perfect scenario DADT would work but in most cases it doesn't.


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I hope that I can have Leo over again.
Of course you will be able to and I won't deny it will be more of a challenge for me. I'll deal with it

XOXOXO...gotta get you a better Movie player though.
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Old 12-14-2010, 10:16 PM
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I had uncomfortable thoughts when lying in my bed only feet away from your room. I could hear you gigling and was thinking about you snuggling and flirting with your mutual sexual attraction on your bed with Leo.
Soundproofing a wall or two might help
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Old 12-14-2010, 10:33 PM
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Soundproofing a wall or two might help
You'ld have to see the layout of my place to understand LOL!
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You'ld have to see the layout of my place to understand LOL!
Was just kidding! I have to eventually sound proof a master bathroom, which requires ripping out all the drywall and gutting it(tub, vanity, etc). Sounds traveling from master bedroom through master bath (no door between and really small) to the kids room, not so cool

I don't really like the DADT either, but where is the line of TMI. I would guess finding that line(and not crossing it) is just a series of error and trial.
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I would guess finding that line(and not crossing it) is just a series of error and trial.
That is not the kind of thing I would personally do trial and error with. It's better to discuss it or "not" discuss it.
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It would probably be easier to soundproof Mono with big headphones or something
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It would probably be easier to soundproof Mono with big headphones or something
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The TMI and DADT, while doesn't surprise me - it does surprise me that it is a factor here with Mono and Redpepper, - I kind of get it like there is a point after which you simply want things to remain vague and unconfirmed Mono?

You don't want the details because it isn't healthy for you emotionally or mentally to know?

(Sorry Redpepper if I'm hijacking btw)

Is this something the two of you work on together to stretch in you Mono (as RP seems to have a need to talk to you about these experiences) or something that you both recognise is a no-go zone either for now - or for all time?
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I kind of get it like there is a point after which you simply want things to remain vague and unconfirmed Mono?

You don't want the details because it isn't healthy for you emotionally or mentally to know?

(Sorry Redpepper if I'm hijacking btw)

Is this something the two of you work on together to stretch in you Mono (as RP seems to have a need to talk to you about these experiences) or something that you both recognise is a no-go zone either for now - or for all time?
Leo is a non-sexual boyfriend. We are all friends. They care about each other and are attracted to each other. If I was not in the picture they would likely take thier relationship further. I just don't need to see or hear about thier "beyond friendship" attraction. I know it is there and can handle it.

If they wanted it to go farther I would step back. They seem happy and that is all that matters I guess.
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