Oops, I think I cock-blocked my only chance for polyamory

[Krazykitty]

I'm not mono, but I think I'm now stuck with monogamy because of the way I reacted to my husband's request to open our relationship almost a year ago. I said "yes", but cried for weeks on end. (I think he thinks I'm mono but won't admit it, not true. The girl he picked was a fuck'n goddess and I'm an ugly tomboy. He couldn't see why I struggled?) Thus every time I bring up the subject, he now says "no". Wat do.