Ok..I have been married monogamous for almost 3 years and have always been monogamous. but something has always felt missing for me. this is my second marriage..I have kind of fallen for one of my husbands good friends. Being the type of person who cannot keep secretes and can't stand lying I told my husband of my feelings. After talking for a while about polyamory he gave me permission to talk to his friend. well it has been really rocky. His friend at least lives a couple hours away so we have yet to have a 'date' yet but I'm not sure if it will ever get to that. My husband is on and off about his feelings with the whole thing but he always ends up giving me permission to keep talking to him...I am starting to develop feelings for him and have decided to break things off a few times because it just seems so complicated. After my husband got really angry one day and was completely against it, the next day he changed his mind and called his friend and told him it was ok with him that we talk...I am unsure of what to do really??...I am really crazy over his friend but I love my husband dearly and we have a two year old and we get along well and I love him. would you feel its ok to continue or should I cut things off and try to stop thinking of this other person?