Hi,
So I like being honest to people when I can, but sometimes I don't know when to stop... and start. I guess I should start with myself and end with a special girl in my life.
I am 29 year old straight male (turning 30 in less than a month). I am an immigrant from Bangladesh but I have been living in Canada for over 20 years now. However I have never been in a any kind of romantic relationship in my life. Not that I never wanted it, woman have always fascinated me, and as far back as I remember, I wanted to be in a relationship. But I think there were some crippling childhood and upbringing scenarios that have made it hard for me to approach women. It was a long time before I even got a female friend but strangely enough, all my female friends are my best friend and I think they do have a special connection with me too. Which is one of the best feelings but also one of the worst.
However, the lack of a relationship has been chipping away at my self-esteem, and year by year I felt like I was just crawling deeper and deeper into a pit. But then I met a girl last year. Guys and gals, if you met her you would likely fall in love. There has never been anyone in my life that I connected so easily and quickly. At this time, I have never heard of the term polyamory. We never explored our relationship sexually so I was always confused by how close we get but I respected her and thought she just needed time. Very recently I was told that, she is in what is essentially a polyamorous relationship, though she didn't use that term. She was very close to bringing me in the loop but because I was new to relationships and "sweet", she was afraid to hurt my feelings. This was a big blow to me. After so many years I finally thought I had met someone. Despite how much it hurt, we are still friends. And I did take away from it the idea of a polyamorous relationships. It's idea that I am in love with, but I am not sure if it's something that would be compatable with me. There is a lot of conflicting ideas in my head right now, but I just want to be happy. It has been so long.
Can you guys help? What should I do? How do I find and join a group? How do I know if this is right for me?
So I like being honest to people when I can, but sometimes I don't know when to stop... and start. I guess I should start with myself and end with a special girl in my life.
I am 29 year old straight male (turning 30 in less than a month). I am an immigrant from Bangladesh but I have been living in Canada for over 20 years now. However I have never been in a any kind of romantic relationship in my life. Not that I never wanted it, woman have always fascinated me, and as far back as I remember, I wanted to be in a relationship. But I think there were some crippling childhood and upbringing scenarios that have made it hard for me to approach women. It was a long time before I even got a female friend but strangely enough, all my female friends are my best friend and I think they do have a special connection with me too. Which is one of the best feelings but also one of the worst.
However, the lack of a relationship has been chipping away at my self-esteem, and year by year I felt like I was just crawling deeper and deeper into a pit. But then I met a girl last year. Guys and gals, if you met her you would likely fall in love. There has never been anyone in my life that I connected so easily and quickly. At this time, I have never heard of the term polyamory. We never explored our relationship sexually so I was always confused by how close we get but I respected her and thought she just needed time. Very recently I was told that, she is in what is essentially a polyamorous relationship, though she didn't use that term. She was very close to bringing me in the loop but because I was new to relationships and "sweet", she was afraid to hurt my feelings. This was a big blow to me. After so many years I finally thought I had met someone. Despite how much it hurt, we are still friends. And I did take away from it the idea of a polyamorous relationships. It's idea that I am in love with, but I am not sure if it's something that would be compatable with me. There is a lot of conflicting ideas in my head right now, but I just want to be happy. It has been so long.
Can you guys help? What should I do? How do I find and join a group? How do I know if this is right for me?
