Welcome! I just wanted to offer you encouragement to continue on with your therapy to help yourself come to terms with all aspects of your life. It sounds like you have a loving, supportive partner to lean on through this process, but don't let anyone convince you to do things that you are not quite ready for. Continue to communicate your feelings to him so that he understands your reluctance to hurry into situations that could possibly cause you pain. I hope that you get the advice and support you are looking for here!