I am so excited to find a forum that will help me/us in the new relationship that we are in!
I have been married to my best friend for the last 11 years. We will be together for 18 years in March. We first explored open relationships as swingers and had a fantastic time. I always had a dream of meeting another couple that we could be exclusive with. A couple that we could have a poly relationship with. We met a wonderful couple in the swinging world. This other couple has fulfilled that dream for me. We have been exclusive with this couple since September and things could not be more perfect. We call ourselves the Tribe.
We are very much in love with each other. Both ladies are Bi and play. The gentleman our straight but share their women very well. When we are together we tend to couple off. I with BF(boyfriend) and Hubby with GF(girlfriend). The ladies get to play whenever they want to. Scheduling our lives is crazy! But we seem to be making things work well.
Lately I have been struggling with feelings that I'm not sure I can put my finger on. Competition with her...Jealousy...fear of being replaced...These can all describe what I feel but I only feel them when I am away from the Tribe. When we are all together I don't have these feelings. Christmas week was particularly hard on me since we were away from BF and GF for a week and we can all admit that staying with ones parents when you are in your late 30's is trying! I have discussed these feelings with Hubby and he has reassured me that I can never be replaced. But these feelings persist. I really wish they would go away! I am so in love with all 3 of these wonderful people in my life. And we have so much fun when we are together...so why do I have these feelings? How can I move past them and feel comfortable when I don't have all that love wrapped around me? When we are together and in our cocoon I'm so comfortable with everything that is happening....I just don't understand these feelings...