Searching or Happenstance?

[redsirenn]

Hey again -
I have another wormy thought that I have been trying to work through and can't seem to come to a conclusion about.

I find myself truly weirded out by the thought of me or O actively "looking for someone" outside of the relationship. I am comfortable with being open to "whatever happens", however.

Actively searching a room to seek out attractive people, online dating sites, etc. Just rub me the the wrong way.

I suppose it is a result of some insecurity - like "Hey! I am right here! What about me! etc."

I feel like I should just chill the fuck out - but this twiggy little worm won't leave me alone.