RP, I'm not clear about whether you're just leaving your blog or stopping writing altogether. Either way, I will miss your presence. I understand that putting your feelings in public now feels dangerous and unappealing, but thank you for all that you have shared. Your openness with your feelings and your process has been illuminating and inspiring.
I wish you well in sorting out your feelings and resolving confusion, and in building connections that satisfy you and make you happy. And good luck to you too!