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View Poll Results: What type of poly origin did you have?
I've always had poly tendencies and never really took to monogamy 13 12.38%
I've always had poly tendencies and tried to be monogamous before 43 40.95%
I fell in love with a poly person and have adapted to the lifestyle 13 12.38%
I read or heard about someone else's poly experiences and thought it could work for me 5 4.76%
Other 31 29.52%
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Old 03-05-2013, 06:44 AM
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Default Where did you discover the concept of polyamory?

I'm curious, because I see so many different and interesting stories, and I like to look for themes.

As a teenager reading Heinlein I always thought the group marriages sounded like so much fun, that I thought it would be cool to have one in a very abstract way. As an adult once I figured out how much work it was to maintain one successful relationship, the idea seemed much more difficult to obtain. The fact that Kinsey has always been one of my favorite movies also probably helped me to think that poly is something that is not that "out there".

I'd had one open relationship early in my 20's, he was also a Heinlein fan and I think he knew that we were both poly kind of people, but I didn't really analyze it too much.

When I met my husband in my late 20's, it seemed like a no-brainer since he was gay before he met me and I didn't want him to be unhappy with never having the possibility of being with a man again, or not having the possibility of finding love with another man. And the idea of being open to finding another partner just seemed to fit us as a couple.

So I'm curious, what are other people's stories about how you adjusted to the theory of polyamory, and how you came to believe it was the right choice for you? Was it guided by a partner? Was it a burning need to love more than one person? Was it an ideal that you ended up fulfilling or a person in particular (say a third or quad) that brought you to it? Which comes first, chicken and egg style, the theory or the practice? What made it seem like the right and practical choice for you (and your partner[s])?

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Old 03-05-2013, 07:20 AM
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I first read Stranger In A Strange Land when I was very young. I think, now, that my parents, at least my dad, viewed it as a bit of primer for how life should be. [I recently found out about their attempt at a triad/vee/whatever. Mind-blowing. I knew the woman when I was a child, I had no idea what the adults were up to.]

My theory is that because I was so young, I had no idea it was odd. My life was already a grand series of odd, so I didn't really notice odd. Marry extra people? Surewhynot.

At twelve, I got to see the Harrad Experiment movie. Probably read the book after (though I don't recall exactly). When I got to senior year in high school, the discovery that I liked girls was the biggest news. I must have entertained notions of 'one of each,' though I don't specifically remember thinking that. First college boy I dated turned out to be bi, and I had a scrumptious morning once, when we both woke up and watched his roommate crush a can (from bed) across (three feet?) from us, and we both shivered with delight. I guess that would have been my first moment of compersion.

A few years later, a crazy woman tried to seduce my girlfriend and I, unbeknownst to each of us. When we found out, we told her to beat it; but she was not easily dissuaded. For a minute, we attempted to be three. We had a lovely makeout session one evening on the couch, and then they got up to go to the bedroom. 'what about me?' 'you can wait out here.' I DON'T THINK SO TIM. So that was over.

Twenty years later (10 years ago) I met my CBF, and you can find the rest of the story in my blog (I'm not averse to typing it a gazillion times, I'm just tired at the moment)

Both of them said to me, more than once, that they didn't think they could do this with anyone but us. They were very good friends and much closer to each other than they were to me, in some ways.

I don't think it's so much of a burning need for me. I tend to fall for quiet, often cranky, introverts. I am quiet, but an extravert. I can be happier with more than one ~ I have a lot to give, and spreading it around seems to ease the burden on any one person to receive it.

It's much more potential for me. It's a possibility, rather than a mandate.
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Old 03-05-2013, 07:30 AM
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Ever since I was a child, I knew that monogamy was not for me. Growing up, I always assumed that meant I would simply never get married, because who wants to be with just one person for the whole rest of your life? Blech.

I always knew about non-monogamy as an abstract concept, all that "free love" stuff from the 60s. I'd heard that some people lived in communes and rejected traditional marriage. I just didn't realize that there were "normal" people who agreed that monogamy wasn't all it's cracked up to be.

The best way to answer your question is that I never discovered the "concept" of polyamory, only the fact that there's a word for it and that I wasn't the first person to come up with the idea.
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Old 03-05-2013, 08:29 AM
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It really wasn't any one thing in particular. Concepts just started stacking up until I stumbled across the term one day. I looked up what it meant and then it hit like a bike lock to the face; holy fuck, this is me! It resonated so strongly that I knew in my heart of hearts THIS was me, THIS is how I want to live, THIS is what I need to be happy in a relationship.

I was told later by several friends that once they knew what poly was, they could have told me years ago that I was poly.

Monogamy to me was always the norm, it was what you did, it was the only way to live, the only way to love. I didn't think about any other ways of being because I didn't really have any other ideas to contrast it with. I always felt...confined somehow, muted, dimmed, constrained with the idea of monogamy but I could never articulate exactly why. When the idea of polyamory came along, I just exploded outwards and I felt more like myself than I think I ever have in my whole life.

A very strong sense of homecoming and personal realization, not that I didn't fight it tooth and nail to begin with. It was such a left-field thing that I thought it must have been an abberation, a defect, a fault in the programming that had to be found and eliminated. I spent several months trying to force myself to think more "normally" even going so far as to dip into "repairative therapy" bullshit and trying to use some of their principals. After four or five months of making myself depressed and stoking the fires of self-loathing, I sat down and decided that I was not faulty nor was I in need of help.

This was who I was. It was inconvenient as hell (I was engaged to be married at the time to a VERY mono woman) and caused no end of problems but this wasn't going away and rather than try to make myself miserable trying to fit a demographic I clearly wasn't, I said to hell with it and set fire to pretty much everything around me. An extremely difficult period but one of the most worthwhile personal decisions I've ever made and I dont regret a second of it.

I even bought this little poly heart pendant and wore it everywhere. I used to be somewhat irritated by people who did shit like that; if you're happy with who you are, cool, but do you really need to put it around your neck or on your shirt? Wearing that was kind of like planting the flag; THIS is who I really was, it was a "fuck you" to the years of not knowing, the years of feeling uncomfortable and trapped.

Man, that was an essay. I must be more stressed than I thought.
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Old 03-05-2013, 09:12 AM
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it hit like a bike lock to the face
What a great visual...
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Old 03-05-2013, 07:52 PM
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What a great visual...
It hurts. A lot. It's also very surprising when it happens.
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Old 03-06-2013, 03:08 AM
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I discovered it through my first mate. He showed me an article about it.
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Old 03-06-2013, 03:23 AM
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So I'm curious, what are other people's stories about how you adjusted to the theory of polyamory, and how you came to believe it was the right choice for you?
It's just how I'm wired. I love hard. I love many. I felt that way before the word became an "official dictionary word" somewhere in the mid 90's.

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Was it guided by a partner?
Nope. Just me. I knew me.

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Was it a burning need to love more than one person?
Nope. I knew I had the capacity. I felt no burning need to love more than one at a time though. Just because I am capable does not mean I have to resources to polyship well. (Ex: enough time, enough space, enough energy, enough desire) What I wanted in college is different than I want now. Even in the same poly person, the wants and needs and limits can change over time.

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Was it an ideal that you ended up fulfilling or a person in particular (say a third or quad) that brought you to it?
Does not apply? I don't think I understand the question. (Forgive me... I feel tired tonight and am not taking it all in well right now.)

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Which comes first, chicken and egg style, the theory or the practice? What made it seem like the right and practical choice for you (and your partner[s])?
I am answering as a person. On the "global" level there is NOTHING new under the sun for humankind. Multipartner arrangements have been had before even if the word "polyamory" was not used at the time. I am delighted that the Internet and authors have created more poly resources closer to hand for those who are questioning or seeking. Makes things so much easier for people.

So for me it is neither. This isn't "poly theory" to me. This isn't "poly practice" to me. This is internal wiring -- just me being just me.

I grew up observing different relationship models -- monogamous marriages, cheating affairs, living together but not married. Living with grandparent generation in the home also. Living only with the parents and kids. Lots of living arrangements.

I slowly came into awareness that hey! I also knew several people who were concubines/second wives or children of concubines/second wives and how those households were set up and run. To me as a kid hide and seek at those houses was... hide and seek. It took me a while to notice the set up there was different than the set up in my home. Nobody made a big deal about it. So it was not a big deal to me. I grew up with "This is our house. That's other people's houses. Be respectful when at other people's houses."

So growing up I just figured that when I grew up... if I found willing partner(s) that I'd form my own model(s) with them in collaboration. We would make our agreements and stick with them as our personal relationship standard. You make your own house rules and it's your own house, right?

These relationships would grow and suit my wants, needs and limits at different ages and stages of my life. So I have done that and continue to do so.
It's not a big deal to me to just live my life as I see fit. Life is not a dress rehearsal. You only get the one.

HTH!

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Old 03-06-2013, 03:30 AM
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I assumed in high school that I would never get married, but I assumed I'd be a serial monogamist (not that I knew that term at the time!), ending one relationship when I got interested in the next person like I had been doing so far.

I read Heinlein in my 20's, but by that point I'd already met MC and established various non-monogamy boundaries (again, didn't know the terms. I just knew I wasn't going to tolerate jealous behavior and I knew I was a flirt). And to me, Heinlein was just another fiction story. I didn't really read it as a, "Hey, this is how it COULD be!" kind of thing. I was still trying to wrap my head around wanting to be with ONE person for the rest of my life (MC), let alone more than one, but I suppose it did help plant the possibility in my mind.

It wasn't until my 30's that my cyber-flirting with TGIB turned into something more and we decided to start using the terms boyfriend and girlfriend. Even then, it was another year or so until I learned the word "polyamory" and found this forum.
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Old 03-06-2013, 01:34 PM
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I honestly had never thought of it much previously. I always was attracted to multiple people when I was younger but didn't know that it was something that could possibly happen so while I would flirt with them if I was in a relationship I never let it go any further than silly flirting.

Then I had a boyfriend who was cheating on me. When I found out I got pissed and broke up with him. Later, after that was done, I realized it wasn't the other person that made me pissed off it was the lying.

Once joining Ren Faire I met people who were in poly and/or open relationships and I realized that was a possibility. So when I started having feelings for people other than Woodsmith I told him about it and now we are here.
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