It's 2.44am. Just had the best sex with My husband. It's funny how our sex life just keeps getting better. Even after he told me he was poly. It's been 10 months now I understand that this is a path he needs to follow. I also knows he loves me , as I love him . I'm still scared (those nasty thoughts still thread their way through though I've built a huge barbed wired fence around my mind) I wonder , and I hope things don't change between the two us . Will he still look at me with the warmth, touch me as he walks by . Will I still feel comfortable to lie naked beside him and wonder if he is comparing my body to hers? Is he thinking of her when he is making love to me? I love him so I try. And I trust.
Hope this gets easier.