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Old 02-04-2013, 03:50 PM
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Default Saturday January 26th

I wake up earlier then Airyn, and after our day Friday I'm feeling frisky, but some what shyish. I don't know how Airyn feels about Chipmunk being just on the other side of our bedroom door. So I cuddle and fondle him, but nothing beyond that. Airyn wakes up and huggs me close and tight. It was sweet, just not very sexy. So we get up, and Airyn wakes Chipmunk. We piddle around the house for a while, and Airyn and Chipmunk decide to walk to her work again. This time I plan to give them a 15 min head start so I don't catch up to them again. I meet Airyn at a different spot, I got a bit dressed up again since I had soo much time between when they were leaving and when I left. Airyn asks me if I want to sit and have some coffee. I tell him sure, but that I didn't bring my wallet, he didn't bring his either so we walk home. lol, poor planning I had no idea he was considering stopping for Coffee. We have the rest of Saturday evening to ourselves and it's a pleasant evening.

Airyn and I are connecting better. He asked me early how my weekend was going, and I told him I was enjoying it. I Told him that i really enjoyed snuggling with him that morning, and he agreed that it was nice to be able to do that. He commented that it had been a long while.

Airyn picks Chipmunk up from work, and Chipmunk falls asleep around 2am (Airyn spends a short while talking and cuddling with Chipmunk before she falls asleep). Airyn and I are up for another hour afterwards. Airyn doesn't make any sexual overtures at bed time so I'm feeling like he's not comfortable with Chipmunk being where she can hear us. We snuggle and chat quietly for a little while. I'm struggling to tell him how I'm feeling, and how much I've enjoyed spending time with just him these past couple days. That it's been nice to have time this weekend with out Chipmunk's moody sad presents watching every move we make. Not that she wasn't moody at all, but she wasn't home most of Saturday or Friday, so it wasn't as big a deal.

But I'm struggling just to talk to him, and I'm upset that it's so hard to say anything. Airyn holds me close and tells me not to stress, that things are getting better, and it's just going to get easier. We fall asleep wrapped in each others arms.
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No longer dateing my husbands Girlfriend.

Airyn: My husband (Straight)
Chipmunk: My x-GF, My husbands GF (Straight)
Wolf: my Daughter with Airyn
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Old 02-04-2013, 03:56 PM
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Default Sunday, January 26th

Airyn and I wake up still in each others arms. He's obviously happy to be there, and I'm enjoying that very much. WE are getting our selves very worked up, and I whisper to him that I want him. He holds me close and says he wants me to, and tells me we have to wait till Chipmunk goes to work. Which confirms that I was right he's not ok having sex with me where Chipmunk could potentially hear us. It makes me sad, but I understand. He and I whisper back and forth how we feel. Airyn tells me will have to curl up in bed right way after Chipmunk goes to work, so we can enjoy each others company for as long as I'm able to stay awake. I have to work that night, and shouldn't stay up too late. Eventually we get out of bed. The day is spent taking care of household chores not fun, but we do throw in some flirting and such. Then Airyn takes Chipmunk to work, and he and I finally get to enjoy ourselves in bed with out worry. Afterwards we are talking quietly and I remind him what I've been saying for the past couple weeks. That if he's ok with Chipmunk coming and going in our room on our days when she's up that I have that same right. I also point out that he was not ok with bedtime or good morning sex with Chipmunk in the next room, and that he has been ok the other way around. Since it's not ok for he and I; I'm telling him there's really no reason for me to move into the living room any more. That I'm done with that.

The conversation moves to Airyn telling me that I shouldn't feel threatened by Chipmunk, that he's not leaving me, that he loves me, and wants to spend the rest of his life with me. He's very sweet and loving about it, and it bring tears to my eyes. I tell him that I love him to, and that I want to grow old with him. That Chipmunk is and has been a threat. That the two of them are not comfortable with he and I having any intimacy when she is a round. He tells me I should view her for what she is, just a girl friend. I tell him that I have not been happy here for months, and that I really want her to move out. It's a shorten version of the conversations he and I have had on and off since October. I don't remember exactly what he said, but it made me sad, so I told him that I would rather be monoamorous with him again then to continue living like this. He tells me there isn't anything he can do, and tells me that he wants me to at least be Chipmunks friend. I'm just getting more emotional, and can't talk about it any more. He asks if Chipmunk apologizing for how things turned out would help. I tell him probably not, so he asks if her explain how things happened on her end would help. I tell him all I can do is promise to listen. I can't promise anything else. He's telling me that we should talk about the things that hurt me in the first months of this relationship, and that I'll have to tell him what he's still not doing. I had told him that I can still ask for things and not get them. I told him that I didn't want to talk about it.

He's being really sweet, loving, tender, and giving me kisses. Telling me not to stress over it, that we'll figure something out. But he's still asking me to be friends and roommates with Chipmunk. He starts getting ready to go see her for her lunch, and comes back to give me more kisses, and asks if I'm ok. I tell him I'll be ok, and then he asks if I had a good weekend, so I tell him I did and give him hugs, and kisses. Then he has to go. I fall asleep while he's gone, but wake up when I hear him typing away at his computer. I ask him if he's working on school stuff. He says no he's writing something. So I ask him about it. He tells me to go back to sleep he'll show it to me later.

I get up for work, and he doesn't say anything about what he was writing we chat for a little while, and he walks me out to the car. So i ask him when he's going to show me what he was writing. He sighs, and sounds flustered, but tells me he'll show me later, and that we can talk about another day. Monday is Chipmunk day with Airyn, and before I leave for work I tell Airyn that I do have errands to run, but that my day starts when I drop Wolf off at school, that I'm not going to try to be gone between then they normally wake up and when I normally call it a night. He tells me not to worry about it, just do what I plan to do when I plan to do it.
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Married to my high school sweat heart (20 year relationship). Talked about Poly, but put the idea off and had a kid instead. Stumbled into an FFM (Vee) that became an FMF (Vee).

No longer dateing my husbands Girlfriend.

Airyn: My husband (Straight)
Chipmunk: My x-GF, My husbands GF (Straight)
Wolf: my Daughter with Airyn
Boots: Social/Friend dating (Bi) Married
History: Social/Friend dating (Bi) Married
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Old 02-05-2013, 04:22 PM
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Default Monday, January 28th

So I get home from taking Wolf to school, and sit at my PC and mess around on the internet for a while. They are a sleep in the bed behind me, but I'm quite except for the typing. I get ready to go out for the errands I need to run and head out the door around 9am. Do my shopping, get an oil change, and window shop at Michael's for yarns I want, and to see what sales they have going. Nothing special, I get home around 11:30. They are still in bed, I put my shopping items away, and head to the bedroom to put up my wallet, and other pocket items. Airyn is waking up, and to me it appears as though they had been waking up before I came in. Chipmunk puts clothes on under the sheets, and Airyn gets up and puts his house pants on.

Airyn meets me in the kitchen, and I tell him that I'd like to go to sleep earlyish, and ask if they are ok with picking Wolf up from school. Airyn says sure, and tells me they are going to go out for a bit. They leave around 1pm, and I fall a sleep around 2. I wake up just a little while after 4, and check the time. The house is quite, and I think no one is home, but figure Airyn and Chipmunk will be home soon to drop Wolf off after school. 4:20 I get up and head to the living room. The house is still quite, and I'm worrying about Wolf getting picked up, but I walk into the living room and everyone is home. We chat for a couple mins, I'm telling him that I woke up worrying about Wolf getting picked up. Airyn says he didn't want to wake me since I've had so much trouble getting sleep recently. I tell him it's ok, and head back to the bed room to lay back down. Airyn comes in and tells me that he and Chipmunk are probably gonna go out again. He tells me he'll set up gmail, and message me while they are out so that if I wake up worrying I'll know where they are. He puts my laptop on a chair by the bed, and gets me logged in, gives me kisses, and then heads out. It takes me a couple hours to fall back to sleep.
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Married to my high school sweat heart (20 year relationship). Talked about Poly, but put the idea off and had a kid instead. Stumbled into an FFM (Vee) that became an FMF (Vee).

No longer dateing my husbands Girlfriend.

Airyn: My husband (Straight)
Chipmunk: My x-GF, My husbands GF (Straight)
Wolf: my Daughter with Airyn
Boots: Social/Friend dating (Bi) Married
History: Social/Friend dating (Bi) Married
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Old 02-05-2013, 04:24 PM
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Default Tuesday, January 29th: part 1

When I get up for work that evening the next morning I tell Airyn that I'm really looking forward to our morning tomorrow. Chipmunk has a morning shift, so Airyn and I will be dropping her off at work after taking Wolf to school. She doesn't have to be in till 9, and Airyn is talking about walking. I ask if I should meet him on foot, or if he'd rather I pick him up in the car.

Airyn: I like walking, but would prefer to walk with you, or if you don't want to walk you can just pick me up in the car.
Me: I like to walk too. So let's just meet after you drop her off.
Airyn: Ok

I get out of my work clothes, and dress in jeans and a t-shirt, get my day shoes on and am ready to go in a couple mins.
15 mins later, it's about time for Airyn and Chipmunk to head out if they want to be on time, Airyn comes in and tells me they are going to drive so that Chipmunk can eat before she starts her shift.

I'm a little disappointed I really do like walking with Airyn, but ok. I give Airyn kisses, and tell him I'll see him in a little while. When he gets home he tells me that he's meeting Chipmunk for lunch around 11:30 or noon. He says he's just going to whip something up for her real quick now, and then we can cuddle up and watch a movie till time to go. I help Airyn make some pasta real quick. While we are working in the kitchen Airyn asks me if I'll stay in the living room Thursday morning so he and Chipmunk can have the bedroom to them selves. I give him a look, and he tells me, "I know how you feel about it, and it's not for that so much as just to be able to sleep, and wake up when we want. I tell him that I'm quite, and point out that they don't wake up in the mornings. He tells me that actually I have woken them up. I ask him like yesterday when I was getting ready to go out at 9am, or when i got home from my errands at 11:30? He looks a bit surprised and says I woke him with my sniffling last week, so I tell him I'm not sick any more. He says he's asking for him, and tells me that he'll get up at a reasonable hour so that I'm not stuck in the living room for 4 or 5 hours, so I agree. Then Airyn copies our move over to the laptop, but it's taking a while so we jump into a game for a bit before we lay down. We curl up to watch our movie, and Airyn tells me not to be upset if he falls asleep that he was up late. I tell him ok that I might fall a sleep too. But instead we enjoy the movie, Airyn's even being touchy flirty, and I'm really enjoying it.

Our alram goes off, and we get ready to leave. Airyn's taking me to the coffee house across the street from Chipmunk's job. We get there and hang out for about 15 mins then he walks over to her job, and waits about 30 mins before he joins me back at the coffee shop. Chipmunk didn't get to take her break while Airyn was there, so Airyn left her lunch and meet back up with me. We sat and drank coffee for a while before heading back home to finish our movie. By the time we get home it's 1pm, and so far we've had a nice low stress morning. We curl up and watch our movie. Airyn asks me if I'm having a good day. I tell him that I am, but I'm sad it's almost over. I tell him that it's been really nice to spend time with just him no Wolf, no Chipmunk, just the two of us. I tell him that it has been a very long time since he and I were able to watch a movie with out Wolf knocking at the door, or cuddle up in bed with out Chipmunk making us self conscious.

After our movie we have a sweet, tender moment of sexual connection. We are more connected then we have been in a long while. Before we get done enjoying the aftermath Airyn gets two quick message tones from his gmail.

Airyn: Now what? *checks his messages*
Chipmunk's off work now, she says I can pick her up after we get Wolf, but that's a long while yet. I'm telling her I can get her now.

Me: *Sigh* she wasn't supposed to get off for another hour.

Airyn: Yeah, we almost waited to late.

Then we kiss, and Airyn holds me tight for a moment, and asks me what's wrong.

Me: I already told you what's wrong, Airyn. Earlier I was sad that our day alone was almost over, and now it's ending even earlier.

We get up and get dressed, but I'm still feeling emotional, and vulnerable. I'm kissing on Airyn and tell him that I haven't had enough of him today. He smiles.
Airyn: I know, I wanted to spend more time alone with you too. We'll have more time on Friday. I love you.
Me: I love you too.

Airyn gets home with Chipmunk, and I'm dressed and getting my shoes on. I tell him we have to leave in a few mins to get Wolf, and he tells me he'll get her. Then he leaves the bed room, and comes back with 3 hand written pages. The letter he was writing Sunday night. He set it on the bed between Chipmunk and I and tells us it's for us to read together and there's only the one copy so we have to share. Then he leaves to get Wolf.

I tell Chipmunk that I cheated and have already read it, but I sit beside her and read it again any way. It's how Airyn feels. He's telling us that he loves and appreciates us both for different reasons, that it hurts him when she and I aren't getting along. He's telling us that neither of us should feel threatened or jealous or hate the other. That we have him in common if nothing else, and that our difference should allow us to be good friends. He's saying that he wakes up plotting how to make us both happy, and falls a sleeping thinking about what he could have done better, and where he went wrong. It's emotional, and sweet. It makes me feel sad, angry, and happy all at once.

I'm sad that he's struggling between Chipmunk and I, I'm angry that he's not listening to me and is still trying to force a friendship on me that I don't want, and can't make happen, and happy that he loves me the way he does. I know Chipmunk enough to know that she won't speak first, and at first I'm not sure what I want to say. Chipmunk and I were sitting on the bed reading the note, so I get up and pace a little bit. Then I stop, I'm facing one of the bedroom windows. I look over at Chipmunk slightly teary eyed.

Me: I don't hate you, I don't fear you, and I'm not jealousy of you. What I worry about is what's been happening between me and Airyn. He doesn't really understand. He's asking me to be ok with the same things he tells me he would not be ok with.

I walk out the bedroom door, and hurry to the kitchen. Grabbing some tissues I head back to the bedroom, and hand some to Chipmunk. I turn to leave again, and stop and look back at Chipmunk.

Me: Airyn's asking me to be your friend when what I wanted was to fall in love with you. He can't fix that he can't change that. I am who and what I am, and you are what you are. It's not something that can be changed or fixed, it just is.

Then I walk back to the kitchen open the window that has no screen and curl myself up onto the window sill, and cry till Airyn gets home. Chipmunk does not get herself together enough to say anything to me, she doesn't come to the kitchen to say anything either. I figure it will be a while before she's ready to talk, if at all.
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Married to my high school sweat heart (20 year relationship). Talked about Poly, but put the idea off and had a kid instead. Stumbled into an FFM (Vee) that became an FMF (Vee).

No longer dateing my husbands Girlfriend.

Airyn: My husband (Straight)
Chipmunk: My x-GF, My husbands GF (Straight)
Wolf: my Daughter with Airyn
Boots: Social/Friend dating (Bi) Married
History: Social/Friend dating (Bi) Married
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Old 02-05-2013, 04:29 PM
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Default Tuesday, January 29th: part 2

Airyn comes home with Wolf, and stands by me talking. He asked what happened, what I said and why I'm upset. Then asks if we can talk in the bedroom, so I get up and follow him. We walk into the bedroom, and Chipmunk stomps out of the room. Airyn trys talking to her as she heads out, but can't get a word in.

Airyn: Whats the matter with you two. Was my letter that bad?

Me: No, it wasn't bad.

Airyn: You two were supposed to talk.

Me It takes two people to talk, and Chipmunk wasn't about to start any conversation, so I said what I had to say and left the room. I've spent the whole time crying in the kitchen, and she had nothing to say and never left the bedroom.

Airyn: Well what did you say.

So I tell him what I said. He's frustrated.

Airyn: This is why I don't talk about how I feel, you don't care. How did my letter to you guys telling you how I feel become all about you.

Me: Because you are still telling me to be her friend Airyn. It takes two people for that, and she has made no attempts to meet me half way. I told you on Sunday that I'd rather be monoamorus with you then continue to live like this, and you tell me to be her friend. In the poly community All she and I have to do is be respectful, and cordial to each other. At this point that is my goal and I feel I have done a pretty good job at that. I can't give you any more then that.

Airyn talks more about me not caring about how he feels, to which I tell him that if that were the case then I'd have put Chipmunk out, or made them end their relationship back in October. Or at the latest November when I told him I was done. He's has a some what shocked look on his face.

I tell Airyn that the level of intimacy that is ok between the three of us has been going backwards because i have been pulling away from it slowly. That I was trying to be care of how they felt about each other, that I really don't want to hurt the two of them. I just don't see any oint to my being intimate with Chipmunk, or my being ok with intimate things between Airyn and Chipmunk when they aren't ok with those same thing between he and I. I tell him that If I didn't care about how he felt I'd have cut everything off at once and not be careful, and delicate about it.

We talk calmly for a while, and then he tells me he has to go talk to Chipmunk. I tell him I'm getting into bed, but that It will be hard to fall a sleep now.

Airyn goes and talks with Chipmunk for a long while. When he comes in I'm in tears again, and we talk some more. He starts by telling me what Chipmunk told him.

Airyn: So you had already read my letter?

Me: yeah

Airyn: that's not fair.

Me: *angry look at Airyn* A lot of things aren't fair.

Airyn: Chipmunk tells me you said you aren't ok with her being my girl friend.

Me: *looking confused* I never said that. I never talked about your relationship with her. I only talked about my relationship with you, and my relationship with her like I told you before. If she read more into it then what I said that's on her. She could have decided to come talk to me.

Airyn: She wanted to talk, but she doesn't know what to say.

Me: She never does. Every time she and I have talked it has been me talking, her listening and only answering when she HAS too.

Airyn: yeah, she does a lot of listening.

Me: I said what I had to say, and walked away so she could think. I knew she wouldn't be the first one to say something. I knew that if anything was going to be said, if any one was going to speak up it would have to be me, or nothing at all.

He tells me I'm giving him mixed messages that I tell him I don't want to live with him and Chipmunk, and that I'm willing to consider it. I tell him that I'm done with all of it then we talk about her having her own place in our home. I tell him that I am done with it, it him who isn't done. That I have never agreed to moving into a new place with the two of them. I tell him I was willing to consider it for his sake, but I've had enough. It time for him to figure it out. If he wants her to live with me then he has to end their relationship and she can stay, or he can keep her as a girlfriend and move her out. I tell him that the problem isn't so much Chipmunk, it's him. The problem has always boiled down to how he has treated me during this whole thing. That If he and I had been a couple, and he had been considerate of me that maybe I'd feel differently, but it's too late for that now. I have no interest in trying to make this work any more. That I want to be Mono with him so I can heal, so things can get better for us.

He tells me that if he moves her out I still won't get to be mono with him. I tell him I know that. I tell him it's what I want, but it's not what he wants. That because they love each other it's just not realistic to expect that. But it's time he start hearing what I'm saying and understanding me. I tell him I've been telling him this for months he just hasn't been willing to listen.

Me: Airyn you haven't been here for me in months, I've needed you and you haven't been here. You've not been available for me. You've listened to what I say, and what I tell you, and what I ask for, then you go off and do what ever, and don't think how your actions will affect me. Like at the gay club you were supposed to be there for me and still be a couple with Chipmunk, but instead you two shut me out. I needed you and you weren't there for me. You were to busy being happy that Chipmunk wasn't hanging all over some stranger.

Airyn: You think I know what I'm doing? I'm new at this.

Me: That worked in the begining, but after 6 month being "new" isn't an excuse any more. You have resource you can learn from. Tell me have you read any of the forums I've sent you? Have you learned anything from them?

Airyn: I've read a little, but no I didn't learn anything.

Me: Then you didn't really read anything. You told me you would do some reading on the forums like I've been asking during the 5 weeks you had off from school. You chose not to, that's not you being "new" that's you not careing about what I'm telling you, and how I feel. I've not been happy here, and I don't see that changing.

Airyn: Everything will work better once Chipmunk has her own room.

Me: Right, her having her own room will magically make her not jealous, or moody, or emotional during our time together?
Airyn you can't even touch me when she's home, you or her or both of you are uncomfortable with you and I being intimate when she around. If that's how it still is then WHY would I want her around?
If you and I can't hold hand, kiss, hug, flirt, be a couple, or have sex when she is here then WHY would I want her here?

Airyn: Silence

Me: When was the last time we woke up with complete privacy in the bedroom?
It's been over a month. How about you and Chipmunk? Last week, ok so you came to the living room right away, but you woke up with complete privacy, and you two have had that several times a week for months till I decided that I was done being moved to the living room all the time.

Tell me Airyn when was the last time we woke up to good morning sex? or had bedtime sex?, when was the last time we went to bed at 2am only to stay awake together till 6am? Not since Chipmunk moved in. If we can't be together when she is here WHY would I want her here. If you can't be close and intimate, and flirty with me when she's here then she has to get out.

Me: I would rather miss you 2-3 days a week while you stay at her place then be this unhappy all the time. It would be easier for me, then having to watch the intimacy between you two and not have the same available between us.

Airyn doesn't say much, he just listens, gives me kisses, and tells me to try to sleep that he's going to go talk to Chipmunk some more. He tells me he'll talk to her about moving out.

He leaves, and I can't sleep. After a while I get up and get some ice water. Wolf is on her computer, but I don't see Airyn and Chipmunk, they are probably in Chipmunk's curtained off space. Back to bed (with my water), and still can't sleep. A couple hours later and I give up, head to the kitchen to get a tall shot of vodka. It's been hours since I ate, and alcohol works to slow my mind so I can fall a sleep. When I walk in Airyn and Chipmunk are talking quietly, Airyn kinda laughs at me when I make a face at him and grab the vodka from the freezer. He tells me I better hurry up and fall a sleep, "Chop chop you have 30 mins!" ha ha very funny. But I do leave grinning.
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Married to my high school sweat heart (20 year relationship). Talked about Poly, but put the idea off and had a kid instead. Stumbled into an FFM (Vee) that became an FMF (Vee).

No longer dateing my husbands Girlfriend.

Airyn: My husband (Straight)
Chipmunk: My x-GF, My husbands GF (Straight)
Wolf: my Daughter with Airyn
Boots: Social/Friend dating (Bi) Married
History: Social/Friend dating (Bi) Married
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Old 02-05-2013, 04:31 PM
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Default Wednesday, January 30th

I start getting up for work, Airyn comes in and tells me that it's decided Chipmunk is going to move out. That she's opening a savings account like we've been telling her to and starting to actually save to move out. Then he heads to the kitchen to make me some coffee. When I'm dressed and basically ready I meet him in the kitchen, Chipmunk is off in her space. Airyn tells me he thinks he has Chipmunk actually excited about getting her own place. He's telling me it wasn't easy and that there was a good bit of crying at first.

Me: Was it more difficult then living as we are for the past 6 months? More difficult then watching me be sad, and unhappy for another 6 months?

Airyn: No, but it wasn't easy. I feel like this is going to be an "I told you so" moment.

Me: Why? What will make this an "I told you so?"

Airyn: I think you'll find that it's still the same, just me traveling 10 mins between you two. I'll still be dealing with you two not happy with one another.

Me: You think it will be the same problems? That I won't be happier? Won't my being happier make things easier for you?

Airyn: Yeah, you'll probably be happier, but things will be just as difficult if not more so for me. I don't see you actually being ok with me being gone 3 days a week.

Me: Like I said before I would rather be sad and miss you for 3 days a week, then continue to be so unhappy all the time. To be so alone in my own home.

Airyn: *thoughtfully* It will make it easier if you are happy more often.

Airyn is very unhappy, obviously disappointed, and feeling very negative. It makes me sad seeing him so hurt and torn, and I realise he's dealing with the very negative, doom and gloom outlook that Chipmunk always has.

Airyn: I told Chipmunk that she's looking at it wrong. She should look at her getting a place where she and I can hang out on our days and have privacy. I told her we'd do it all together, search for a place, decorate, buy furniture everything. I told her that she's not being kicked out at the end of March, if she needs another pay check or two she can still stay with us.

Me: as long as there is an actual plan for her to be moving out that's fine. I never intended to kick her out with out a place to go. I have always wanted for her to be independent, financially stable. I don't actually want to hurt you guys, I'm just done being miserable here. I know that you two are in love, and I'm trying to be as ok with as much as I can. Distance will help me a lot. I asked for space, and time when she and I broke up and didn't get that.

Airyn: There's wasn't much we could have done. Our space is too small right now.

I'm thinking that they could have slowed things down I asked for that too, and didn't get it. I also asked for them to be more discrete, and that didn't happen either. With Airyn being so very negative, and obviously upset I decide to keep those thoughts to myself. We go back to talking about things between us, he's saying telling me we'll have to talk more about what he's not doing that upsets me. So I leave him with something to think about.

Me: Airyn, you've not been there for me, I'm in new territory, and you tell me you want to be there for me that we are doing this together. Then we go to a gay club where I'm supposed to be able to come back to you for at least discrete togetherness, and I need you, but end up walking away the last couple times trying not to burst into tears. Do you really think that the anxiety and stress I woke up with the next day was NEW? I needed you at that club and you weren't there for me.

Airyn doesn't say anything, I can see he's thinking about that, and I start the car, we kiss and I hurry off to work.

Wednesday day Airyn gets up at Noon and tells me he wants to go out. So we get ready to go out, pack my laptop, and his tablet. We head to a local coffee house that has a good internet connection. Airyn works on school stuff on the laptop, and I mess around with a game on his tablet (one he got for me). Airyn is gmail chatting, and web caming with Chipmunk here and there. He asks me if there's any problem with him and Chipmunk opening a saving account together. I tell him I don't see anything wrong, but that he may not be able to add his name to a checking account with her. Over all he and I chat on and off till time to go. Pick up Wolf then Airyn joins me in the bedroom as I get ready to sleep. He asks me if I'm feeling better knowing that Chipmunk is moving out.

Me: It's nice to think she's moving out, but I still worry you'll try to talking me into her moving with us again.

Airyn: Don't worry about that. It's a done deal. She has a plan and she opening a saving tomorrow to start saving to move out. She and I have been talking about decorating together. She excited about getting her own place.

I sit up and hug him close and tell him it's nice to hear that. Then I lay down to sleep before work. Airyn gives me kisses and tells me he and Chipmunk are going out for a little while. I tell him that's fine, and ask if he'll let me know when he gets back. He asks if I want him to wake me if I'm actually a sleep that sleep has been a problem for me for a while. I nod and tell him to just give me a kiss, I can sleep through that and if I wake worried I may remember he came in, and be able to fall back to sleep. He agrees.
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Airyn: My husband (Straight)
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Old 02-05-2013, 04:32 PM
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I get up for work, and Airyn reminds me about staying in the living room. I tell him I agreed and I'm not going back on it, and ask him to leave my laptop and my pillows out for me. I move some day clothes and some comfy house close to the living room so I can change after work. Airyn tells me he'll set an alarm for 10am so that I'm not off in the living room all day. I thank him for that, and he thanks me for being willing to stay in the living room for a few hours.

At work I get to thinking about the day before, and I realize something. We live in a common property state. Anything Airyn signs his name to we are both 100% financially responsible for, which on the reverse mean we are both 100% in control of as well. I start looking around on the net to confirm my suspicion. I know Airyn's not awake or available, but I message him any way. I tell him that he's right our credit reports are tied, just not in the way he thought. Then I tell him I'm ok with them opening a savings account, but not ok with a checking or an apartment. That anything he signs his name to we are both financially responsible for. I tell him that I didnít have much time to think about it when he first asked, and asked to talk about it later, but before they start looking at apartments.

When I get home I see where Airyn set the laptop, and I open it to find a hand written "I Love You <3" sticky note. So I log into gmail, and message him back that I love him too. After taking Wolf to school 9:45 rolls around and I decide to jump into the shower. That way if they get up, but don't come out right away I can just ignore it. I get out get dressed, and see that it's 10:30 they are still sleeping. By 11 I'm getting frustrated. I get home from work at 7, and home from dropping Wolf off just after 8. I have phone calls to make, and need the headphones, but they are in the bedroom. I don't feel like knitting, and I'm wishing Airyn had actually gotten up like he promised. Just after 11 I start getting sleepy enough to fall asleep. So I curl up with my laptop on Chipmunks cot. Wolf's cat gets all excited and starts purring before I'm even laying down enough for him to lay on me. lol silly cat. By 11:30 I'm a sleep.

I wake up hearing Airyn and Chipmunk talking clear as day in the bedroom. I don't wake supper quickly, but I know it's late, and I'm sad, and sleepy with just over an hours nap. I have no memory of what they were talking about. I've found that half heard conversations while I'm sleeping make little to no sense to me. Probably a good thing.

I wake up enough to open the laptop, and move out of Chipmunk's space. Airyn messages me.

Airyn: damn itís late couldnít sleep

Me: ?

Airyn: Last night I was up late after sleeping in yesterday

Me: Oh

Airyn comes out and goes to the kitchen to make himself some coffee, and I bring up the common property state stuff that I looked up. I tell him that I'll be financially responsible for anything he sings his name to, and that him having his name on a second apartment could cause problems when we start looking to buy a home. He talks about being able to remove his name like a roommate who moved out. I tell him we'll have to see how that works I don't know anything about that.

Then he goes back to the bed room to make Chipmunk get out of bed and dress for the day. They head out to open their savings account. I get message from Airyn telling me sarcastically how much fun sitting at the bank is. haha. They get home and Airyn has stopped at a grocery store picked up some bread, and cinnamon rolls. He's tell Chipmunk and I that cinnamon rolls are his favorite sweet. He save one for Wolf, but between the three of us we eat the rest. They weren't half bad considering they are store bought. I tell him I have a recipe and should make him some home made ones this week. He likes that idea.

He and Chipmunk start making sandwiches, and are telling me that they are going to go into down town and walk around for a while. The sandwiches are for a picnic type lunch/dinner at one of the park out there. Then Airyn tells me that they are bringing their tablets, and he'll message me once they get within the wifi of the college in downtown. I ask him if they are headed towards the school, and he say that they can hardly walk around in down town and not end up near the school. Then they leave pick up Wolf, drop her off and head into down town.

Wolf and I talk about her day, and I help her with home work. Then I head to the bed room to lay down, but I'm not falling a sleep. Haven't heard from Airyn yet, and it's getting late so I'm wondering where they are. Around 6pm I message Airyn (even though he's not online) and tell him that I'm really looking forward to tomorrow (Friday), and that I'm laying down. I wake up when Airyn comes into the bedroom to get the laptop and say that he never messaged me. He says he never pulled his tablet out, and apologizes. *sigh*
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No longer dateing my husbands Girlfriend.

Airyn: My husband (Straight)
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Wolf: my Daughter with Airyn
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Old 02-05-2013, 04:36 PM
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Friday, February 1st
I get up for work, and Airyn makes me coffee. We talk on the way to the car. He's telling me that Chipmunk has to be at work for 7:30, and that they'll be getting up by 6:30.

Me: 6:30?
Airyn: Yeah is that all right?
Me: so you can get up at 6:30 to get Chipmunk to work, but you can't get up 10 so that I don't spend more then half my day in the living room?
Airyn: Necessity I guess.
Me: *angry* I can make it a necessity. *glaring at Airyn*
Airyn: Gees.

Me: *less angry* I was only a sleep for an hour, I've told you I don't like be moved out of the bed room. It's my room too. I have always spent my mornings in the bed room with you. Usually curled up beside you reading a book. Instead I'm spending my time in the living room, and you see you for less then 15 mins. You still aren't cuddling with me when I go to bed. I keep telling you that if you are ok with it on our day, then you need to be ok with it our your day with Chipmunk, or it has to stop happening.

I leave for work still angry, still feeling like I can't trust the things Airyn tells me. First he say he'll get up so I'm not stuck in the living room, then he says he'll message me, neither of those things happen. I should just stop expecting him to follow through. Not that I was surprised, just sad and disappointed.

At work I call to let him know I made it then I login and message him.

1:20 Me: Not sure this is a good Idea, but I'm logged in.
I Love you Airyn, I'm just frustrated.

2:00 Airyn: I know. I'm sorry

2:10 Me: >.>
I've been anxious about it since you asked.
I really was trying not to be upset.

Airyn: Yeah. Going to sleep now. Hope I can make it up to you today.

Me: I'll see you in a few hours. I just want to be close to you.

Airyn: Same. No fighting. Just closeness.

Me: Yes please.

Airyn: Miss you. See you soon.

Me: I miss you too! <3
Good night.

I get home from work, Airyn drives Chipmunk to her job, we drop Wolf off at school. Then we curl up in bed together. Airyn asks me if I'm feeling better with knowing Chipmunk is moving out. I tell him she's still here, nothing has changed yet.

Airyn: I keep thinking you should be excited that she's moving, but you aren't.

Me: you were pretty upset about it, hard for me to be excited when your upset. I am glad you two are talking about her moving. I'm looking forward to have an actual day not cut up by Chipmunk. I'm hopeful that it actually happens.

Airyn: As I recall I was angry about more then one thing. Like you reading my letter before I gave you permission. And she is moving it's the plan, it's a done deal.

Me: I'm sorry you were angry, are you still angry?

Airyn: I guess not, I'm trying not to think about it.

Me: Hmm. I know that feeling. Not thinking about the things that bother you.
Tell me does Chipmunk know that you have a key logger on her computer?

Airyn: Are you trying to justify reading my letter early?

Me: No Just asking a question.

Airyn: No not specifically, but she knows I can see everything she types, just not how I do it.

Me: Do you still feel that you have nothing to hide?

Airyn: silence

Airyn and I have always had access to each others informations. Logins and passwords to everything. We have one book with all our login and passwords saved in it. We've talked about this many many times. Airyn has always maintained that he has nothing to hide, and I have said the same thing. When we were teens I used to write things and leave it in places for him to find. He used to go through my things and read the notes I left him. I think this was the first time that Airyn truly realized there is a trust issue between us. It's an issue that has been building for months. Starting back when Chipmunk was working much farther away, and getting worse when he obviously deleted messages he sent her from my phone back in November. As well as a few other incidents.

Me: I probably wouldn't have felt I needed to read it early if other things had been different.

Airyn doesn't respond to that. So we go on about our day. Over all it's a good day. Airyn and I are connecting physically, and I'm beginning to feel like he's actually hearing and understanding me again. We talk about how we both feel more connected with each other, and how much better things have gotten. I tell him that things are easier for me now that he and I are actually getting to spend time together. After talking we curl up naked and fall a sleep for a short nap. Then we have to get up to pick Chipmunk and Wolf up from work and school.

Airyn leaves to pick up Chipmunk. When he gets home and we head out to get Wolf together he tells me that he talked with Chipmunk in the car on the way home. That he asked her to be cool, told her that it's stressing him out that every weekend she gets bothered see he and I together. According to Airyn she says she ok with it, and that she has stuff to do.

Chipmunk spends most of the evening on her tablet, computer and/or napping in her space. We can tell she's uncomfortable, but she's keeping it to herself. Airyn and I get our game on and have a good time. We talk about going out for coffee, but decide to hold that in reserve for when Chipmunk get moody, or emotional. Just as we are finishing a round in our game Chipmunk opens the joining door (the one her space is up against). She has this angry stressy look on her face. Airyn asks what's wrong, and she just points into the living room.

Airyn: Is Wolf being too loud, I'll go talk to her.

So we get up and check on Wolf who's making herself ramen in the kitchen. We ask her to keep it quite and let her know that Chipmunk is going to sleep. Then i point out to Airyn that it is the weekend and it's not even 8pm. That normally Wolf is allowed to stay up till midnight on her days off from school. Airyn tells me that she can stay up but she has to be quite, and considerate of Chipmunk. I agree, and point out that Wolf won't be silent, Chipmunk will need to put in headphones, or put a pillow over her head. They both have to compromise.

Back to our room and our game. Around 10pm I tell Airyn that I'm really tired and need some sleep. This week hasn't been good on me for sleep. He tells me to go a head and lay down. So we snuggle together, then he gets up and goes to cuddle with Chipmunk as she's going to sleep too.
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No longer dateing my husbands Girlfriend.

Airyn: My husband (Straight)
Chipmunk: My x-GF, My husbands GF (Straight)
Wolf: my Daughter with Airyn
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Old 02-05-2013, 04:37 PM
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Airyn and I have an early morning appointment to get our taxes taken care of. We get up and are gone about an hour. 10 am Airyn gets Chipmunk up so she can get ready for work. Wolf is still sleeping, and Airyn and I head out to get live feeder mice for his snake and to stop at a yarn store just outside of Dallas. Before we get on the express way Airyn asks me if I know of a florist close by. I tell him I'm sure there is one, but that I've never really paid attention. We end up stopping at a market/grocery place. Airyn picks out a special treat for me. And organic licorice in a flavor I haven't tried before. He tells me he wanted to get me something special, but that I get chocolates all the time, and he just got me my favorite organic fresh ground peanut butter. I tell him yeah it's hard to find thing local for me when what I'm interested in these days is mostly online or outside the city. I try the his treat, and it's really nice, I even get him to try it. Then we stop at another place for a flower. Airyn was wanting to pick up just one, but since I don't know where a florist is he has to settle for a small bunch of very pink carnations. He clips one short, and we go to Chipmunk's job where he give it to her. I assume she appreciated it.

We are gone several hours, and spend the rest of our time in the car talking, goofing off, flirting and generally being close. By the time we get home we are both sleepy from getting up so early, and from driving all over the place. Off to the bedroom, for some R&R. Airyn hits all the right spots with me, and I'm feeling very warm and pleasant when we curl up for some sleep.

Chipmunk gets off at 6:30 and Airyn picks her up. At the house she wants to make a cake, but doesn't have a box mix she likes. We talk her into just making it from scratch, and I hear Airyn reminding her to clean up her project if not as she goes then when she's done. She makes her cake pops it into the oven and head to her space to snooze till her timer gots off. After her cake comes out, she's talking about getting some sleep cause she has to go to work early the next day. While she in her space she hears Airyn, Wolf and I in the living room. We are laughing, giggling and generally acting like a happy family. This makes her come out of her space. She tells Airyn that she's going to sit out side for a while.

So she's upset about something again. It's latish about 10pm at this point, and I know Airyn is going to need to go talk with her. In our room I tell him I was wanting to take a shower, that I'd like him to join me, but I think he needs to go talk to Chipmunk. He gives me hugs and is kissing my neck then tells me that he does need to talk with her. And he thanks me for being understanding. I tell him it easier to be understanding when things are working well between us, when he and I are more connected, and able to spend time together. I tell Airyn that the last few weeks I've really appreciated getting to spend time with just him even if our weekends didn't go as well as they could have. More kisses, and gratitude from Airyn

I start the shower, and get in. Airyn heads outside to talk with Chipmunk, but walks back into the bathroom really quickly. I ask him what's up, and he looks stressed, and upset. He tells me not to worry about it that it's between him and Chipmunk, and we can talk about it later. I finish my shower, and I'm now worrying about what happened. I ask him if it's something I did, and he tells me no it's nothing like that. ok.

Him and Chipmunk start emailing back and forth while he and i try to play another round of our game. I ask if they are talking it out in text. He say yeah, and it obviously tilting his screen away from me not wanting me to see what they are talking about. 30 mins of this back and forth between them and we hear Chipmunk in the shower. He tells me he needs to talk to her. I tell him ok. he goes off we lose our game. He comes back and asks what happen. I tell him 2 other people dropped so it's not his fault him being at his computer wouldn't have made enough of a difference.

Me: so what's up?

Airyn: we can talk about it later.

Me: It's not something we did right?

Airyn: no, It may not seem like it, but Chipmunk is very worried about our marriage, and about how thing fell apart.

Me: I don't have anything positive to say to that. For me to feel like she's bothered by how thing fell apart she would have to have shown that at some point, but she hasn't. You guys didn't slow down a beat when she and I broke up. And as for our marriage things are better between us what's for her to worry about?

Airyn: She has always been bothered by her view of the marriage thing.

Me: we were married when she decided to move in. And she also told us that she wasn't not sure about you, and that she likes women. It's hard for me to believe much of what she says now. I haven't heard any concerns over us being married from either of you since September why the sudden worry now?

Airyn: we'll talk about it later.

So Airyn spend a large portion of the rest of our evening talking to Chipmunk either in the kitchen or via email, and sms. I'm thinking it's her new way of being unhappy when he's spending time with me on our day, that she's found some new threat to get Airyn to tell her that he loves her and wants her in his life. She can no longer threaten to move out as now she is moving out. I asked Airyn about that one. Why was she soo upset and crying about having to get her own place when she has been threatening to move out at least once a month since she moved in? He tells me that he asked her that too, and she admitted that she never intended to move out. I tell him i knew that that I was the one that dupped her moving out a threat. I also told him each time that she can't move out she has no where to go (other then back to her biological mom's), and no way to pay for an apartment.


Sunday I make Cinnamon rolls while Airyn meets Chipmunk for lunch, we spend the day with Wolf, Chipmunk comes home from work, and then leave 15 mins later to spend super bowl sunday with her parents. Her brother picked her up, and Airyn is picking her up from her mom's place at the end of the night. I stay up really late to enjoy a couple hours of privacy after Chipmunk leave for her mom's place. After Chipmunk heads out Airyn is cooking in the kitchen and I come back in while he's talking with Wolf. He's telling Wolf about Chipmunk moving out, and seeing how Wolf feels about it.
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No longer dateing my husbands Girlfriend.

Airyn: My husband (Straight)
Chipmunk: My x-GF, My husbands GF (Straight)
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Old 02-05-2013, 04:38 PM
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It's a strange day. I get home really late from work. Airyn and Chipmunk are in Chipmunk's space sleeping on a one person cot. Airyn comes out when I get home telling me he was worried and asking what took so long. I tell him i had to see HR about changing my W4 for next years tax season like we talked about. That I thought he would remember, and that HR isn't there till 7, and I got home as soon as I could considering morning traffic through downtown. We kiss and i apologize for worrying him. Then he tells me he's sharing Chipmunk's cot, but is going to get up and join me in the bedroom at 10. He asks if that's ok. I tell him sure.

10am he moves into the bedroom, but I'm up at the computer. He crawls back into bed, and I laydown with him for a few moments. I tell him that I'm not going to fall a sleep and I'm getting up. He's ok with that, I close the blinds she he can have less light to sleep in, then give him kisses and go back to my computer.

He wakes up around noon we snuggle and talk at a whisper for a while. Then off to the kitchen for coffee. In the kitchen he's still whispering. i tell him he shouldn't have to whisper now, but he says you can hear every little thing in Chipmunk's space. Of course it's only curtained off. Then he says that the coffee bean grinder will be really loud. i tell him the new one is more quiet then our old one. Coffee in hand we head back to the bedroom, and Airyn wakes Chipmunk she has to be into work at 2pm, and she wants to get there early to pick up her benefits paper work from her HR people. They leave in the car to go to the coffee house across from Chipmunks work, and have lunch together. I walk and meet them 20 mins before Chipmunk has to be in to work. Airyn walks her across the street, and comes right back. We mess around on the tablets, and enjoy a couple cups of coffee before heading home again.

At home Airyn decides to tell me what was up between him and Chipmunk. Apparently she was ready to call their relationship off Saturday night. He tells me that hearing us talking and laughing like a happy family made her feel guilty like she was or has ruined our marriage. I point out that things are better between he and I then they were when she and I broke up. That things are better between he and I then the last time she was commenting on being bothered that he and I are married. Airyn agrees with me. He tells me that she was balling in the shower saying that she loves him and has ruined his marriage.

He's telling me that he told her he's tired of her swinging back an forth. That on the weekends she's unable to handle it, but Tuesday rolls around and everything is grand, then the weekend comes back up and she depressed, and sad and everything is over. That he needs some stability form her. I tell him that the 13th has come and gone and she never did commit to the two of them. That unless he gets her to actually say out load that she is willing to commit to making their relationship work that he won't have anything stable to hold on to. She's never had a serious relationship before and poly relationships aren't for most newbies (especially ones who are actually mono wired). She needs to get out, grow up, and experience life so she can have the skills to be in this type of relationship. Airyn agrees. We talk more. and he bring up them wanting to do a handfast ceremony. Something fancy and wedding like, but not an actual wedding. He's asking me again if I'm ok with that. I tell him I knew it would come up eventually, but I don't see them making that type of commitment any time soon. Airyn agrees that it wouldn't happen till next fall or next spring. i tell him that they have to survive 3 to 6 months of her having her own apartment first.

He's telling me that she was worried I get upset and cry about it. I grin and tell him i probably will cry at their handfasting. He say their a difference between one and another. I know, I know. I tell him that if it will make him happy I'm ok, but that they really need to get her moved out, and see how things go 3 month from now, and 6 months from now. Then we are talking about how Airyn doesn't anticipate spending a solid 3 day or 4 days at one home. He tells me he's not going to go three days with out seeing Wolf. I tell him I never expected that he would. Then he's telling me that he's going to prep our extra desk top pc for keeping at her place. Saying that Chipmunk wants to feel like he lives with her too, and that he'll be keeping some clothes at her place. They are talking about going clothes shopping together. I joke about her owning his Guinness shirt as she's worn in twice in the past week. That it got washed, and never made it into his shirt drawer. I tell him I'll have to get him a couple more when Irish fest comes around again.

Airyn talks about spending time between my our place and the apartment he and chipmunk are getting as being fluid. that when Chipmunk goes to bed early, he'll probably come over to our place and see me off to work. And after I call it a day if Chipmunk is home he'll go to her place. That once I'm sleeping he'll still be visiting her on her lunch break. Talking about how something still won't change. I tell him that it will probably take a while to figure out what works, and what doesn't. To see what he finds easy and comfortable for him since he'll be the one driving back and forth. Airyn tells me that he's hoping we'll be with in walking distance. That Chipmunk is going to stay within easy walking distance to her job. I point out that I'm looking for place between where we are and Wolf's school and that this is within walking distance to her job.

I tell him it felt more real after I heard him tell Wolf about the move. He said that Chipmunk was worried that Wolf wouldn't handle it well that she'd see it as a separation between he and I. He talks about how we haven't raised Wolf with those traditional views of life, love, sex or marriage. that Wolf is probably the most comfortable with this idea of all of us. For her she'll have two homes to goof around in soon.

Then he tells me that she's been concerned with how I would handle them talking about a handfasting. That she said something like, "Numina would be very upset if she knew what we were talking about". He says now he has to convince her that we talked about it and that it's just as ok now as when we first talked about it months ago. He's telling me he has a hard time convincing her what I am ok with. I tell him that if she never talks to me or asks me she'll never know, or be comfortable.

Over all it's solid conversation, nothing fun like talking about sexy stuff and kink, but still not angry or overly stressful. I comment that it was nice talking with him without all the anger and stress, and Airyn agrees. In our room I'm on my computer and Airyn is on his, we are doing our own thing, but have been flirting and teasing each other off and all through out the day. Thing between Airyn and I have gotten a lot better. When he's getting ready to leave to visit Chipmunk on her break I flash him and he doesn't resist nibbling on me before he heads out the door. He's not for sure when her break is and he's leaving a little earlier then he expects her to get her break because of traffic. I tell him that knowing me I'll probably still be up when he gets home. He tells me he'll wake me if I'm not. We grin and he heads out.

I actually fall asleep while he's out, and when he gets back he has to kick Wolf out of our room I'm in bed sleeping, and Wolf is talking loudly at Airyn who walks her out of the room berating her for not being considerate when I'm obviously trying to sleep. He comes back and we talk a little bit. I ask if everything is ok, and he say things seem to be ok. Then he snuggle up with me, and in no time we are sweaty and content. He tells me it's late and that I should sleep then he gets back on his computer.

Me: I like this.
Airyn: What?
Me: This. Us.
Airyn: *laughing slightly* Yeah me too. I didn't know what you were talking about this blanket, this game, this lighting haha.
Me: you are actually physically excited by me again I really like that.
Airyn: Grins I do too. Now get some sleep.

Then I drag him into bed for some more heavy kisses. Where he ends up making me squirm while he nibbles on my back.
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No longer dateing my husbands Girlfriend.

Airyn: My husband (Straight)
Chipmunk: My x-GF, My husbands GF (Straight)
Wolf: my Daughter with Airyn
Boots: Social/Friend dating (Bi) Married
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