So, after years of failed monogamous relationships, guilt and tears, I am starting to wonder if I am a polyamorous. I am terrified by this because I feel like there are no poly people around me, and as such my choices are extremely limited. When I tell the average person that I am "poly," I typically get a look of horror. First, no one understands. Second, they think that it means I am just a cheater who needs permission. Third, they feel that it means I have huge commitment problems... but I don't! As I am sure you all know, it IS possible to be in love with, and committed to, more than one person at a time. I hate hiding this part of myself, and I am miserable when I try to. I guess I just needed to vent.