Originally Posted by ThatGirlInGray
What about a break? Are you able to take some time, some space to figure out what you want and what you're willing to tolerate before having to make an "all or nothing" choice? If you can, I would think one of two things is likely to happen- you discover you're better off without the mismatched desires/expectations and it makes the choice to not have them in your life easier, or you discover the pain of being without them is worse than the pain of the mismatch and it makes choosing to work through the differences easier. Either way, if you can, I suggest getting away for a bit to clear your head. I hope you're able to do what you need to do for yourself, whatever that ends up being.
I don't know. I live with both Lamian and Primal and during the talks I had with them last night any time either of them showed me affection it would set me off to crying again.
Happened again this morning when Primal gave me a hug and held me for a bit before I went off to work.
I see my therapist tomorrow for an emergency session.