Very confused and unsure what to do

[butterflywaterfall]

It's almost time for W to come back home. He'll start his journey either Tuesday or Wednesday and I'll see him again on Thursday night. I should have taken Friday off from work!! Sigh...

We have talked a little bit but I try not to really get into the subject while he's so far away. For right now, all of our video calls are positive and he is anxious to get home to me. That feels good.

At the same time, I wish I could visit A. I told W I wouldn't see him again until after we talked, but I miss A just the same.

In the meantime I am doing a lot of reading on the forum to gain some perspective. It has been very helpful! Thank you all for your support.