[QUOTE=Aurelie26;142480]Last night we finally got around to allowing Nathan to watch myself and Scott having sex. It's something I've been putting off because I wasn't 100% sure about it.
It was awesome, and I have to admit I found it to be very erotic, and a big turn-on for me to have Nathan watching us. Scott was also very into it, I could tell.
Thank you so much for your post Aurelie; I for one was really interested in knowing how your experience came out (and I don’t mind at all finding your continuing posts in this thread). Having been through this very experience I can now say what you now know: imagination cannot get to the reality of how intense this is. The bravery of both of you to go through with this is what opens doors to profound possibilities between you. I was sure Nathan would struggle with certain feelings, and discover perhaps to his dismay some of the toughest ones are also the most erotic (that appears to have happened; it sure did for me), and I was also sure you would experience something that was much more intensely than you would have thought, and from my own experience I believe this is all going to turn out to be very positive for both of you. The key I think is to accept your own feelings; the deeply erotic hides in deeply stuffed desires for unfamiliar dynamics, mainly relating to power exchange. And when we can finally say to ourselves and our partner, frankly and without fear but with trust, “I like what this does to you”, and “I want you to make me feel this way again, as hard as it is”, then we don’t need to know why, and we don’t need to tag names to any of it to make it real, because the richness of this journey is only found in the journey itself for the two of you. As for Nathan, I can say from personal experience that a key is to understand that being in this position, and enduring the feelings, is not inflicted but is a choice, and one that he cannot make without great reserves of personal confidence. I wear my position in my relationship like a badge of honor. And for the close friends who ask me how I can put myself in this position, I assure them it is a unique experience and I desire it and choose it, and that it takes strength, not weakness to open myself to the erotic and relationshp growth that comes with the struggles go through as part of it. I for one hope to hear how things are going with you both from here.