I've posted before a few weeks ago when my partner of 4 years and father of my child told me that he thinks he may be poly inclined. We had talks about it and it upset me so much that he said that we would take it off the table for the timebeing. When he told me his feelings I asked him if he was at all seeing anyone and he told me no. I have since found out he has been seeing another woman for months, has had her in our home while our son was sleeping and even more recently lied to me and got my family to look after our son so that he could go meet up with her.
I want a mono life but i have realised that in order to keep him as I do love him even with all his faults and I want to keep my family together, I have to accept the polly lifestyle and to be honest I just don't know how to do this. I am supposed to be the 1st and most important relationship but I already feel like I can't txt him incase he is talking to her and i'm imposing. I feel like the other woman. I honestly don't know what to do, how i'm supposed to feel, how do I get to the point where I am happy for him that he has found someone else that makes him happy.