There's also the fact that if I leave the only place I have to go is back to my mom's house 30 minutes from anywhere with no car, no phone, no internet, and no contact with the outside world except my mom and the TV. And I am scared of being alone. We have been together for 2 years and we have lived together for most of that time and have very rarely spent a night apart. I can barely sleep without her there beside me and when I do sleep I toss and turn and have nightmares. I don't want to be alone again. I was alone for almost 21 years and then I went straight into spending every night with someone beside me.
ME: 23 year old slightly bi-curious male. B: 19 year old bi female and my wife