Hello from David
Hi my name is David
I live in London and I am thinking and considering polyamory. I read
on an article appeared on the web The Daily Beast and got really curious about it. I am mainly attracted by men and currently in a relationship.
The person I am with means so much to me that I decided to go living with him and share as much as I can in my life.
I do however feel attracted by other men and strongly feel the conflict or contradiction or the sense of guilt that I try to repress this feeling and think I should do something else, distract , engage in something else. Hide away that feeling, pretending I am perfect...if by perfection one means sticking to the rules of a heterosexual biased society....or community...
I wish I could be monogamous but I feel I cannot and running the risk of losing everything I have. On the other hand I would like to be able to learn
to open up and talk about this issues with my special mate and again
I am deeply afraid to hurt him and lose him.
Still I want to know more about it and hope to find suggestions or opinions
to open up my views and learn how to change or cope with what I experience.
Thank you. I would salute everyone here with a poem by my favourite poet
These are amazing: each
Joining a neighbor, as though speech
Were a still performance.
Arranging by chance
To meet as far this morning
From the world as agreeing
With it, you and I
Are suddenly what the trees try
To tell us we are:
That their merely being there
Means something; that soon
We may touch, love, explain.
And glad not to have invented
Some comeliness, we are surrounded:
A silence already filled with noises,
A canvas on which emerges
A chorus of smiles, a winter morning.
Place in a puzzling light, and moving,
Our days put on such reticence
These accents seem their own defense.
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