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Old 09-26-2011, 04:40 PM
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Unhappy Wasting My Time..

Hey Guys,

I dont want to do a "poor me" post but I am sad, pissy and all around miserable. I'm tired of being rejected once ppl find out I'm married. I'm tired of the fucking double standard there is between poly males and poly females. I'm frustrated that I have wasted the last 2 years looking only to get rejected time and time again. I'm tired of being the odd one out when my poly family gets together with their primaries and secondaries. It sucks being the 5th wheel, and not one of my friends gets it. I feel like opening up our relationship was a huge mistake, and now I have to suffer for that decision. I hate being told "you'll find someone, etc" when it is apparent I cant. What the fuck is wrong with me?!??! Why cant I find happiness? I'm really miserable and angry. On one hand, I want to ditch all my friends, my wife and move. On the other hand I want to stop telling people I'm poly all together. I cant see me doing that though, because I loathe liers.

Im at a breaking point, where I regret this decision. My wife doesnt understand. I just want to stop being miserable.

Sorry, but I had to get that off my chest
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