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Old 10-23-2013, 03:35 AM
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I never wanted to share her heart.

My wife is "Dahlia", her lover is "K". For my wife and I, we had not sought a poly ls in our 20 years together, and neither though of ourselves as poly. Not even a thought of it.



I was very much supportive of her desire to be sexually empowered, and to be able to find FWB's and fulfill her boundless sexual appetite. I've never had a problem doing so, but for me age 56, 15 year older, it seemed our sex drives were headed in opposite directions, and the thought of her having other lovers seemed to be really a perfect solution for both us, as it was a thrill for me unlike any I'd experienced, and the obvious for her. However....

The man she began a relationship with in January quickly fell for her. The sexual chemistry was incredible, and rivaled ours, unlike any of the men we met we encountered in swinging for many years. He made his feelings clear after several months of their seeing each other, and I was totally against the bond deepening. I was fearful, jealous and became insecure about our relationship. I regretted encouraging her to follow this hotwifing path, felt like it had blown up in my face. However.....

The more we talked, and the more time I got to know him, the feelings eased. Our kids left for the month of June, and he spent most of the time in our home, a beautiful month in which we opened up our home, our lives, and our hearts. I began to not only fully trust him, but also feel deeply for him.

I hadn't planned on starting a thread tonight, so will continue tomorrow.

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Old 10-23-2013, 01:49 PM
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This is where it for me, gets a little murky. K is probably the most introverted, opaque human being I've met. But I don't know how good this is for our little Poly V. I had joined a local poly group and the first potluck was on communication. Oh man, how perfect is that??? Except there was no way in hell he was going. I knew before asking him what he'd say, the picture of him seated in a room people he knew nary a soul self disclosing his thoughts n feelings was beyond belief, I knew he be extremely uncomfortable doing so. It was a night we'd planned on being all together, so a simple "date night" it was.

I guess I'm a little uncertain about what a "typical" m2m relationship in a situation like ours is.

Adding to equation I am bi and he is hetero. I had kinda gotten used to that swinging. In Ohio.

But given the fact he's become such a big part of our lives, his lack of ability to communicate freely has become a concern to Dahlia and I. We talk about what things will be like down the road, will he be here? We have pushed him to open up, and I can see it's clearly painful for him to do so. So we are also wondering how it is possible to get such an introverted and private man to open up a bit. This relationship would not exist as it does today without volumes of talk between my wife and, it took a lot to understand and accept it.

Any similar stories?
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Old 10-23-2013, 02:23 PM
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If you and your wife like him. If her needs are getting met and he doesn't seem to be causing emotional drama, what is the problem with him being reserved?

I am outgoing myself and to be honest the idea of talking to a bunch of strangers talking about my feelings (or even worse, listening to them talking about theirs) is my idea of a nightmare too. Doesn't mean that I am bad at communicating when something bothers me or when something isn't working.
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Old 10-23-2013, 02:36 PM
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I think the single need she has (we) have that is not being met is, where is this thing going? Maybe it's sounds strange to want to know this, but it is something we've talked about.
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Old 10-23-2013, 02:38 PM
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And we're not so concerned about him not attending the potlucks, we agree it would painful to him, which we don't want... we can attend as a couple and still benefit.
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Old 10-23-2013, 03:02 PM
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I am the hinge between my two men.

Honestly your wife's boyfriend doesn't need to discuss any feelings and etc with you what so ever. Only person he owes a discussion on where things are going with is HER.

Butch and Murf are distantly friendly. Murf would be very upset if Butch was in his business. He is a very private person.
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Old 10-23-2013, 02:45 PM
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I think the single need she has (we) have that is not being met is, where is this thing going? Maybe it's sounds strange to want to know this, but it is something we've talked about.
Maybe he just doesn't know yet. I think you have to be careful not to come on too strong and heavy, just enjoy the relationship and who knows where it will go? A good way to ruin things though is to not leave the man any space to process his feelings. He is obviously an introvert, just give him some space.
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Maybe he just doesn't know yet. I think you have to be careful not to come on too strong and heavy, just enjoy the relationship and who knows where it will go? A good way to ruin things though is to not leave the man any space to process his feelings. He is obviously an introvert, just give him some space.
I agree pushing him beyond his comfort zone being needy and clingy may only succeed in making him run.
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I'm the one in my relationship that has the "communication handicap". Like kdt said I need things boiled down to questions with simple answers. It's not something I do on purpose but I just have a hard time verbally expressing myself.
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